Hi everyone! I know some of you have been very impatient with my slowness and the outdated post! SORRY! forgiven? heehee

Well, today there is GP essay exam. That would be counted in mid year exam wor! Just an essay itself will determine my grades...i feel so threatened by the thought of it. Moreover, i did very badly for the common test for gp. =( Pathetic ah! No way man..this is not going to continue wor! Yupp..i will work hard for it for sure...

Hm...well, what's next?

yup. The new exco was out on friday! It' s a day that i dragged most...I really missed my seniors a lot. The root has already sinked so deep into the soil...i just felt so rooted towards them lah. They have contributed selflessly for the sake of co. Sometimes, it must not only be the things they did, rather is also the things that they said. It's as if the compass to show the direction was blurred and i feel quite loss. I will definitely pick myself up for sure. for the sake of everyone. Time flies, still remember the time when i took over the post so unpredictably...i was so shocked to the core wor. I used to think that i would be the last one to be called to lead, but the opportunity that i was given truely proved myself wrong. Well, i do appreciate and grateful for such a rare opportunity to strike on me...as i slowly pull myself always from the ignorant self. Now that i think of it...it makes me wonder if i have the courage to move on. I am honoured enough to be given another chance now, to work things out in a different and challenging environment. I do demand more from myself, to complete the task and solve the problem efficiently. ( no reason to slack!) Moreover, i hope i continue to enjoy this passion to lead with my fellow members n exco. Thanks for placing the trust...it really make me want to even work harder for anything. yupp. To all my ex-exco & seniors: Thanks for everything. Even to the tiny-est thing u guys have done. JIA YOU O!

There is something which veron had shown me. It did really made a deep impression... Here it goes:
Effective leader is one who makes decisions firmly. As weavering can lose time,lead to confusion and even to a loss of confidence.
Ah! how true! It truely speaks what i have to do lor. Should i say am enlightened? Not the best yet...but will work towards this goal.

YesYes. I've met a big bro who is called lao lao lao da (LJ)! ha ha. yupp. thanks for the support and encouragement. It's nice to have known you. Xiao xiao xiao mei very grateful wor! Must keep in touch wor!

Last but not least...I hope to work well with my exco. You guys are great peeps, let's all work towards in doing great things and achieve great outcomes. JIA YOU.NYCO

Labels: Leadership...a lonely journey against all odds

Hi everyone. I cant believe i actually survived this week's tests, lessons and a lot of other events. Quite proud of myself though...it makes me believe that difficulties and problems wont last forever. All it takes is what you really think in the mind, and there you go, you can actually make it to the end. Very philosophical, but practical yea?

Yes yes, i've passed my NAFA test. So worried about not able to jump far enough wor...Maybe i should thanks to my white school shoes. Though they were so torn and tattered, they really brought me all the way out beyond the passing distance. Whoopie. I had tried numerous time before Nafa test, but just could not overcome the feeling of being too " heavy"? But i did it! *doi doi doi* THANKS to Jasmine who lent her running shoes to me so that i can sucessfully pass my shutter run. heehee.

Today went to support lisuan as she was playing in SP.CO. with Germaine and Yi Ling. This was the very first time i actually went out that far from my house since the beginning of jc. wahhh..so deprived right? Oh well... Their performance was good. It's nice to see her again after so long...hope she is doing well. YUP. And all my secondary school classmates who went to poly...i wonder how are they doing right now.. Miss them a lot! Hopefully there will be a class outing during the june holidays...*pray* There's a lot for us to catch up...hopefully we dont miss out anyone in this "mazey" journey.

Oh yes, Wishing Li Suan an advance B'dae! Yupp. Happy Birthday. You are as OLD as i am soon! heehee. WELCOME! *wink*

Sometimes, all i wanted to achieve is to be happy. Am i really happy now? Or am i forcing myself to be happy? What is the dragging factor? where went wrong? Am i asking too much? Why am i feeling this way? I could easily differentiate if i am truely happy or not. Course i know too much of myself..and not to decive myself any longer. I used to be seeking for something...and i found it: to make others happy. Yes, i found the happiness from there on. Now, mission possible: I need to find the happiess...not to depend too much on anyone to provide. What if one day the person just dont seems to appear anymore? I wish to face the reality than living in my own world.

The greatest gift in the world is to forgive. Forgive anyone who might have cause hurt to you, physically or mentally. Let it not be an obstacles and cause you further mistakes and injuries. Probably, they are the ones who show you the path to be a better person. yupp. =)

This is a super longwinded post. argh...should save some of the words for tomorrow's Econ's test! HA HA >.< IRONY!

Hi everyone. Hm..blogger is now experiencing some error. There is no way to change the colour to my font! Argh..well, it's okie with you guys right? Heehee...Today my post will have colourful and meaningful content. That will do! =)

YEAH MAN! NANYANG CO GOT GOLD! Whee~~ It was sort of a surprise outcome to all of us. When it was announced that we got gold.. we total go crazy and screamed non-stop. And i meant that we REALLY CAN SCREAM WOR!(Opps, guess we somehow irriated the other schools by screaming at the top of our lungs) I just cant believed it, our hardwork really paid off. We set high expectation on ourselves, but i guess under the stressful conditions, theres only one word i that i think we should have is to be " contented". It has been quite somewhile since i have come across Gold during SYF. The other time was when i was in PCPS CO. The feeling is really good. Especially when you are sharing this joy and laughter with your CO MAtes. Am really elated and relieved. There will always be room for improvement, but this will be my last time having syf. 3 times of syf experiences made me grown up a lot in terms of peforming skills and stage presence. I love ever single syf. Not only that i gain self satisfaction, but it is also the bonding among the co members that really leave a deep impression in me.=)

Saw my beatty juniors! WHEE~ I was like so shocked to see them appearing from no where. heehee. Goody old peeps! Really miss everyone of them. And all the beatty juniors who never come...*hugs* Took some photos with them. (cant stand my untidy hair, shouldnt have used the hair spray!) Am really touched since they came down straigh after their exam! Thanks guys! OOOOOOOOOOOOOO....also saw Zhou lao shi( beatty conductor) He was conducting Pioneer jc and RJC. So Happy to see him! His presence really make me laugh out loud. There went his clumsy actions and werid expressions. He rocks to the core man!=)

See, as promised, this post is extremly meaningful right? right! HA HA... It has been so long since i ever wrote on something colourful. Guess all these while i have been boring you guys with my work schedule and non-stop complaints. heehee. Bear with me k?

The past few weeks have been tough and tiring, but we made it through the end! Perseverence! The suffering wont last long with a strong and positive mindset. It's time that i should catch up with my work. Have been lagging behind since i had missed quite a number of lectures and tutorials. Jia you Man.

One wish to Beatty co. GOLD for the next syf k? Love to hear from you guys next time. I would be as happy as i am now! Even happier lor!

Someone told me that i dont make the first move when comes to a certain issue. Will it be good if i tried to squeeze myself into the group when i feel umcomfortable and all? I would definitely love to...but what i want is to have more sincerity to build on as foundation. I feel weak at times...but i just need someone out there to understand. Need not to be a lot of people, just one will do. will you be the one? HA HA...dont worry, am not forcing anyone. Move on if you have to, course you are the one who control your life, not me. I will be back..back soon.

Hi everyone. A week has silently passed by. Why do i say so? Even i myself find the whirlwind of events within the week were too packed..give me a break man! It always feels so threatening to find that i have a pile of stagnant tutorials and several upcoming tests. Argh.

CO is taking up a lot of time. I wonder if this a good or bad. When i am in CO, it at least helps me to take off some stress from work and focus on something else. But, whenever there is co, i will reach home very very late. Tired too. I ate my dinner late too. Time is running out for many of us. How i wish i have an hour more daily...impossible right?

I am starting to losen up myself a bit. Am still trying to fit myself in the environment. Hopefully i wont feel myself like an alien after a few more weeks.(cant delay any longer, few more weeks k?) I really need to settle in fast! Everytimes i am like so distracted as to what is happening around me and even for the little things that dont make much a significant at all. Over-sensitive and am feeling real tired. It's time for me to think rationally like studying for physics.

Screw up a few things at school, but that is not going to hold me back from figting and improving on them! Yes, feel quite disturbed by them. Somehow, i just wont surrender, maybe that's why i am always feeling so tired. I dont reward or give myself a break. That's the real problem. I should reward myself with more FOOD! heehee.. But am glad that i really like to go home after a long day in school. I miss my family members, my brother who is in the army and my bed. Furthermore, that is where i find myself relax and happy.=)

Take care peeps. jia you always. Jia you for SYF!