Hi everyone. Hm..went to see a doctor on my rashes. Hm...the medcine did make me drowsy. ARGH..hate it.
I need to believe myself that i can overcome what i've always drag...nothing will stop me from now on. Everything ought to start from now...yes.

Trust yourself. Create the kind of self that you will be happy to live with all your life. Make the most of yourself by fanning the tiny,inner sparks of possibility into flames of achievement---Foster C. McClellan 

Hi everyone. Today was as usual...but i am unusally tired. And my face was darn itchy. Ahh..having rashes on my face. Hm...i decide to tone down myself from all the excitment..as well as no matter how my environment changes...i shall not be affected. Yes...it's a feeling that you will feel that life is tasteless...however...i need to sort out my thought. Use the eyes to see than to use the mouth to talk. Life shouldnt be always on the high side....get a life! There ought to have a balance of the both side of the world.

Hm..tomorrow shall be a very significant day. Yes. It's a day to lighten myself and give way to others. It might be exciting for others. For me...its a day to reflect upon what i've done so far. I did pick on myself a lot...course i am not able to give others the ideal world...which i think i am far from realistic. Yes. I could be hard on things...yet i dont want to burden everyone. I just want them to in the best environment that could possibly be created. I want to see everyone doing good or even better. It simply makes me happy to see them happy. It's that simple. Yes.

No matter what happen next time...i am not going to freak out. Take it and solve it. And be more realistic.

Hi everyone. Manage to get more sleep from yesterday....so today i'm not that sleepy. I hate to let my heavy eyelids fall during lesson. BLEAH.

Hm...i find that i have interest in something which i hate to deal with. Problems. It might sound very contridicting...and i'm confused too. Problems which gives me tonnes of headache. Aw. HEEHEE...but come to think of it...dont we deal with problems everyday? Even solving a sum or to prevent 2 parties from quarreling. The key is how we deal with it that will reflect upon the outcome and yourself. Seriously...i dont think it is easy to do a good job with it. Be tactful i guess. And also ..at the same time..we might be giving others problems too...so we are never alone and innocent as when we are born. well..hai ya..forget about what i've said..i think it is SENSELESS!

Went for a hair-cut. Met some sec 1s in the same salon too. Cool. They seemed to know more about upper secondary student . HM...That how much generation changes. When i was in sec 1..i dont even bother about that. Yes..i can be that heck care last time..heehee. Well..they are energetic ...abit rebelious? I am not implying all...yupps...that are also goody old ones out there. I dont think it is a negative side..dont we want to behave like them? Circumstances dont allow us to..and i dont think time can be reversed back as before ..where everything can be started all over again. Overall, it implies that there might be a rise in problems that we have to deal with...erm. HA HA... HAi ya...what am i saying?!? LOL. Argh.. i'm thinking too much again. When i'm free..i can think of all kinds of stuff...and trying to find links to them. HEEHEE

Food for thought uh? HA HA...OR too much food that i've eaten to cause me blabbing and crapping non-stop. Actually thats the excuse for me to rest for 30 minutes during blogging...heehee

Hi everyone. Hm...The superstar champion is Brian. Hm...his acting skills are indeed better than Leo. So i guess...the result is a fair one. Thats what a competition should be. But it could be as curel at times. Well...the person who earns the vote little by little with his own ability would eventually emgered as the winner. While the another person will just have to pick himself up and stand in the second position. Well..he has not lost totally. Didnt he win others until this stage? yupps. I guess both of them will get the chance to sign contract with the company. yupps.

Hm...well..so i guess sunday marks the end of this week. HM...everything will be back as usual. Well at least i get to wake up later. And i can manage my own timing and distribution of work. Maybe theres are the advantage ba. I intended to go swimming and some other stuffs...but.. Ya...i will work hard to bring all my " intentions" to reality after this march holiday. YUP...
JIA YOU PEEPS. Add oil all the way to the brim.=)

Hi everyone.

I hope to see a rainbow.

Hi everyone. Hm...nothing much in the morning...just wait for time to pass. Then in the afternoon, had to go to school for CO practice. yup. I guess things didnt go too well for the Tan Bo group. Plus we had to squeeze to a corner just for some men to work on the floor. HM... My instructor wasnt too happy with our performance. Well, I am the first to get the feedbacks. Oh well. Then I am asked to say out my plans for my CO infornt of my members. Hai...in the end i never say much but to ask him to give me some time. Hai...just imagin...after so many months..i am still figuring out how to find the best solution that work best for my CO. Argh. I still struggling through that pathetic small hole. I find being care for is the most fortunate thing on Earth..but of course there should also have a source for the care to be orginated from. WELL....

I just think i am giving myself too many unnecessary problems. Plus..i dont think i did my job well. We shall see how things go ba. If only i am given another chance to prove something. Which is to have faith in myself.

Whoo..so cute. Innocent. Is that what is lacking in the living things around us? It looks kind of sad to me...what u think?

Hi everyone. hm..woke up early in the morning to attend Physics practical lesson. Stumbled here and there..and i think i have to improve on my practical skills. YEah. Good news is that we have finish all 6 practicals in one day..which means that we do not have to come back on thursday. Hm...when i was leaving the class with Ruluan and Jasmine, i was caught up with Mei Mei's gang. A math question this time. I doubt my answer is correct. Yes...Then Mei Mei got so excited that she hugged me?!? Erm.

Finally, on the way to the CC to play badminton, i was still thinking about the A math question which i had done for them. Hm...when A is not equal to -2 hm...Ahhh.. HA HA. Thats how i can go haywire at times. LOL Hm...when reached the court there were only Janet, Jasmine, Ruluan, Huixin, Huiping, Shiqing and me. After which, Huixin left for her tuition lesson while Shiqing and Huiping left after some time. Yup So left the four of us. *sad tune from violin* heehee Later, we went to KFC to eat lunch. It has been a long time since i've sweat so much and going out in a group to eat. Why I am so deprived from everything? Or in the other way round that i am making myself as a loner? LOLX..anythin la. Then we went to Seven- Eleven to buy drinks. * we are water buckets* heehee I bought a cup of hot chocolate. Erm...too sweet? If i can make myself a hot chocolate, i would be the kind of dark chocolate that taste less milky and sweet. YUPPS. Chocolate rawks. Hello panda rawks ( periodical craz over the milk flavour. Opps heehee*

I looking forward to more activities during the holiday. Play hard to unleash myself from all the tight restrictions that make me feel absolutely TIRED! To make a happy day out of all the ordinary days is never just ordinary anymore. Erm...am too long-winded. TAke caresss!

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Like the way it is being took. Brilliant.=)

Hi everyone. Hm...it has come to a break. I desperately need a break. Lately have been feeling breathless by everything. Simply choke up my mind. AHhhh... I believe i have the will to overcome this. As well as any other obstacles. I feel weak within. Yet i am not going to...

Sometimes, i just wonder what causes things to decline as it is now? Did i do anything? Why am i feeling so unstable? Will everything just like before. Truely...i think i've miss this particular feeling. I feel empty. When and where should i find this back? I guess i can only rebuild this feeling Or meet it up by chance. Maybe i should be more realistic in seting myself to find it personally. Yes. Things has to be done and ought to be done.

over the boundaries lies a hope.a motivator.

Hi everyone. Hm..lately have been suffering from non-stop sneezing, to fever and now sore throat. I dont know whats next. I WANT TO GET WELL!!! I WANT TO EAT MY GOODY FOOD!!! I DONT WANT TO FEEL TROUBLED BY MY PHYSICAL ILLNESS!!! yea. Compared to last year...i am more prone to sickness now. HA HA.. going to build up my internal strength.

Hm..so term 1 is gonna end soon. Hm...after the last few tests of hard knocking on me..i finally get myself back from the dark hole. So...this term 1 report card is something i will get immue to. Well...i can understand. Why would one feel so sad about the result? I have analysed. 1. He/she has put in a lot of effort in that particular subject. 2. Marks have become part of us. 3. Upholding the faith and not to disappoint anyone including themselves. 4. Blinded by all the pressures. 5. people around them are insensitive. HA HA..i dont know...yes..I THINK TOO MUCH. They are all the possiblities that i can think of. Well. I can conclude this topic by : no matter how much you feel that you have disapointed anyone or everyone...just continue what is ahead. No matter how many times you never succeed...dont give up the hope of seeing 8 rainbows across the sky. No matter how sad and depress you are...you need to be the first who pull yourself out. Smile no matter what! *pat pat on all*

Ya..i feel much better than the last few weeks or month. Seem like i am tag along with the word stress... Yes, i dont deny but i am not going to let it be part of me! NEVER! I gaining my momentum to bounce back and be the smiley bouncy ball. * doi doi* Life seriously need to be spice up.cheer up.thumbs up =)

HI everyone.

Hm...today passed down the co voting form. Hm...sec 1s are not yet eligible to vote..however they can take a look at the form. Hm...i dont know whats troubling me...maybe it meant a lot to me. Well...i am not a control freak and i dont think i did my job good. Seriously...as i think back..i am still so new in everything. I dont feel myself as one and probably someone can do better than me. OF course. Sometimes i wonder...purely wonder..why i step into this platform? I've never regret..as much as in am concerned...its my pleasure. I just cant help but to sigh...its not east and prestigious as what many thinking..but really..i get to know my members more. Yes...i am very happy about that. Sometimes when i think back about what i've done..i hate myself for that. HA HA..can you imagin? It might sound abit too far fetched...well. I urged to carry on...along this rewarding( friendships+ experiences) journey. Time flies...and its time for another cycle to arrive.

I have no regrets...but to treasure what is remainding...
Life still goes on ..like the water in the river.
I am greatful to everyone.
Deep down my heart

Hi everyone. Has been a long and tiring day at school..simply just worn me off. In the morning..theres health check and i was so relieved that i no need to change my spectacles again. (normally is not like this case) Whoohoo. Then after which went for biology lesson. Hm...veron was sick in the stomach...hope she is alright now.

Haiz..okie..i cut my story short. The last lesson was English. Yes..had another difficult time in there..not that i dont know that i am weak in English...i kept repeating the same mistakes which made Ms Loo very pissed off. I'm sorry. Haiz...it aches when you saw nothing went right. Haiz..lately, with my mood swings...i've stunned quite a number of my classmates. Hm...sometimes i just dont know what to ask from myself. Maybe.."stop being a wet bucket and spoil other people's day!" Yes. So true lor. I will change at all cost!

Hm..stayed back for awhile to chat with Sherlyn, Ru Luan, Jasmine and Meichiee. Its good to talk to them or i will continue to depress. LOL Hm...meimei came along and asked quite a number of questions that simply that put me off. Realli..i was so stunned and simply just laugh at the seriousness in her and her persistent in asking that particular questions. And all took place when i was still eating my lunch. Guess what? I laugh until i cried..then need to go toliet and recover myself. Haiz...to some extend..i would want them not to be stressed up. Yes. If test is everything...then they have overlooked a lot of things..things that they should pay attention of...such as building up their characters and be more socialised. And most important is to be sensitive to others...put others before themselves. Yes..i know they sure will excel in their studies...of course. Jia you