Thursday, November 30, 2006 -{'1:51:00 PM
Title : [ Anyone out there? ]
Hi everyone. hm...lately i feel somehow quite suffocated. well..a lot of things happened. It's too fast for me to react and i dont even know how should i deal with things. Surprise uh? I am at all lost now. Can anyone guide me through the haze? well..am asking a no-answer-question again. Faint.Hm...i dont know where should i begin. I just wonder...how many people in your life ever stop down and lend you a listening ear? hardly. Like the chinese saying goes: It's like searching in the deep sea for a needle. Did i convert it correctly? hai ya. Hope you get what i mean. I dont know why am i sighing. I sigh as i think life is not as easy as it seems. There's a lot to life. To all the emotions, behaviour, characters, living and non-living factors. I have long realised that being a human requires so much of an effort. and being a good person requires you to devote your heart and soul to make it right. and being a bad person requires no less than a good person. Why is it so? Course, i believe eveyone here have gone through our infant stage. That is where we are as clean as a sheet of white paper. It is during the growing years that it gets coloured. What am i trying to say here is that...a bad person has to overight all the life principle to end up in such state. It's just not so easy as we think...ERm..i also dont know why i ever give so much thought over such things. Maybe that's what i am experiencing now...Are you?
Sunday, November 26, 2006 -{'7:38:00 PM
Title : [ Vitamin C ]
And so we talked all night about the rest of our livesWhere we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And i keep thinking of that night in june
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon and there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels
1:As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, come whatever
We will still be, friends forever
So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money
When we look back now, will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, i keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels
Repeat
1La, la, la, la; yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la, we will still be friends forever
Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?can we make it somehow?
I guess i thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us round?
Will these memories fade when i leave this town
I keep, i keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
Repeat 1 x3
By Vitamin C _ Graduation(friends forever)
I like this song a lot. I just came across it. Meaningful lyrics doesnt it? heehee. I believe in the quality of time we spent together. No matter what, something happy shall always stay with me. Enjoying being with you(4e1). THANKS.
Saturday, November 25, 2006 -{'11:04:00 PM
Title : [ Miss everyone ]
HI everyone. lolx. hm..seems like i dont blog as often as last time. I feel sad about that. I feel like this blog is not going to last any longer. I have neglected it for too long. But...i will try my best to keep it alive, for the sake of passion. heeheeHm..life after Os is so darn aimless. Can anyone guide me through? HA ha...that's the problem you see. When i were still studying for Os..i dragged for everyday to come. And now..i dragged again as i dont get to do something more meaningful other than just slacking. SOmeone please help me! maybe i shall go and exercise, read more books, go out with friends , meet up with co peeps...I am not going to rot at home further! Ahhhh..my room is in a big mess. My father keep nagging me to clear my books. But..i dont know where to start from. It's like 4 years of secondary school life is over and within a blink of an eye...i have to clear all the books which has accompany me through thoes thick and thin, happy and sad days. HA HA.. what am i talking about. nah. Am not in a good state of mind to think properly..ahhh
Okie, maybe i shall update on my class chalet! Hm...The planning of chalet was actually quite okie. I got a lot of help from the committee people.(hope u know who you are..cause i am truely very happy and i do appreciate all your help!!!!! You guys make my day man!) . On the first day, Ruluan's father fetched Qy, LS, Jas, Me to the sentosa resort. THANKS A MILLON!!!!!! we got there quite early. Hm..not long after, i was too exhausted and fell asleep. Zzz. Outside was raining when i was going to sleep. Sad. I felt very unhappy and worried. Wah..sian. I meant, i dont want to see all our effort gone down into the drain wor! ahhh. Heng, the rain stopped right in time for the BBQ to start. Phew. well...soon, around 5 something, we started the fire so that we could bbq the food in time. Hm..haiz...guess what? Not many teachers came. Ahhhhhhhhh...why?!?!?!!?! okie. Only mr koh and Ms lee came. Okie..better than none. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....nvm. AHHHHHHHHH. OKie. Enough of my screaming. But, seriously..i just felt so disappointed. But am glad to see my classmates were eating happily and enjoying their food at least. Making them happy and seeing them smile is enough to brighten my looming sky a little. I really hope everyone enjoyed the chalet! It's the last gathering we are going to have. I not sure if we are able to last till next yr or years down the road. If there is any possibility, i would like to organise another outing! Hm..didnt get to sleep well during the first night. Huixin, Lisuan and I went to sleep beside the Pool. Ahh...can u imagin? All the mosquito were bitting us. Ah..okie. But i did manage to get an hour sleep or else i will go crazy. Hm...so sorry for the inconvience caused! ( to my fellow classmates) we wanted to actually book third room..but the chalet was already fully booked before we can ever do so. HM...sleeping is always a real problem during any chalet. ahh...next time i shall make it more spacious for everyone provided we have enough cash! So..People, Start saving up!!!! heehee. erm. faint. On the second day..many girls left...ahhhh. Was quite disappointed and down. It dont seemed to be like a class chalet anymore. well..i respect all ya disicion. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Okie. So...during the second night. we only left with 6 girls including me. Sad sia. pathetic! Chek Keng came over to join us. yup. Well..i managed to get more rest than yesterday. IS that good or bad. Maybe that's what we always says: If there is a loss, there will be a gain. Same goes to gaining more sleep. Where are my friends? lolx. irony. Sure it is. Hm..on the third day..we checked out of the rooms and went home. I AM SO TIRED! I realised something: i enjoy playing beach volleyball!
Everything has come to an end. I'm quite sad over it. what about you guys? hm...better dont be like me..Stay as happy as ever and SMILE!
Hm..i guess i have type enough for today. Shall update again soon! CYAZ ALL! heehee
Thursday, November 16, 2006 -{'10:29:00 PM
Title : [ Happy memories ]
My FRIENDS IN CO!
My FIRENDS!
-{'10:08:00 PM
Title : [ The war has just about to begin ]
Hi everyone. WOAH..i am back after such a long break. Not a break..but from a war field. Full of bullets and days without water. Erm..what am i talking about..heehee. Nay...just finished the exams! I dont know what am i feeling now..simply so confused. It occurred to me that exams are painful and tedious yet only last for a short while. I still remembered the first day on the actually exam that i felt to nervous and worried. That experience left me with great fear. The invigilators were so stern-looking. o_o Ahh..i remembered this indian lady who collected my paper. She was like snatching my paper when i didnt even use my hand to press on...and moreover, she suddenly appeared from behind( no where) and without some patience and indication..she just took away the paper hurriedly. Omg... I was so shocked and nervous. I thought i had dont something wrong. But in the end..i realised that she did the same thing to my other classmates. Ah. Nightmare. Once, she even took away my paper so quickly that my correction tape dropped. Instead of picking up for me, she turned to look at the correction tape then quickly got on with the collection of papers. hm...i dont know..i felt kinda sad and unhappy. Nevermind, let the bygones be bygones. I could not blame anyone by only myself.
It dawned on me that i had finally finished my exams. But i think it is actually the beginning of the physchological war fair. I cant help but to feel so lost and uncertain about the results that are going to be release on next year's Jan. I really dont know how i fair this time..but i have already given in my best. I made mistakes here and there. Meanwhile, i hope to spend more time with my friends and family.
Looking forward to class chalet and co chalet and a lot of gatherings with my friends. I hope to go and exercise -jogging and swimming. Maybe i should let myself relax and recharge for more challenges are waiting ahead of me. HELO PEOPLE!
