Thursday, July 27, 2006 -{'8:18:00 PM
Title : [ ]
Wednesday, July 26, 2006 -{'6:17:00 PM
Title : [ a minute of reflection. ]
Hi everyone. well..today was kind of a tedious day for everyone. and for the two tests that we are having today..I think most of us didnt sleep too well last night. A math was as tricky. Right after this test...i was like..*proof* slump back on to my chair. wah. Then after which is the chemistry test. I really think that we should equip with the skills of managing all the subject tests..even all at one go. Then when comes to 1 or 2 tests in a day..then i think we should be doing alright. I know it's not the most wonderful thing on earth to sit for tests..but let's face it..we will be tag along by them until we finish schooling.Gee...my stamina somehow dropped quite a fair bit. I'm get easily tired and all. This show how mature am i...that's the nice way to rephrase things. heehee. Nay..not funny at all. BLEAH.
Happy birthday Jamine.=)
I have somethings to convey here.but seems like i cant find the right word.
Monday, July 24, 2006 -{'4:51:00 PM
Title : [ argh ]
Hi everyone. Today is just another day. still in search for a direction. an aim.Hm...i still torn between by two choices in my mind now. where to go will best suit me. i know there is always a stepping stone that holds me back all the time. But ..i really want to improve on it. i still struggling with it. It has been quite a while since i dont think about it. but..let's face it...infornt of me there's 3 ways to go. where should i head? Sometimes...i do really wish there is someone out there to advice me on. on the decision making process. I feel too numb for it. I need to know my aim. Somehow. i lack to feel confident about myself. something which i really hate to. some sort of distrust towards the closest person to you. yourself. i've tip-toed.
There's one thing i can promise myself..never give up. No matter how much things dont look right at my side. i have to just to believe..there's light everywhere. Even if i ever feel down...there is always a bright sky to look at. Even when it rains..i will let it wash away all my pain.
If only i persever to the end.--smile. no matter what.
Saturday, July 22, 2006 -{'12:16:00 AM
Title : [ Racial Harmony Day ]
Hi everyone. Today is Racial Harmony Day. I managed to borrow a malay costume from my malay friend. yup. well..not much people wore the ethnic coustumes...but i guess what Mr Boo had said was really meaningful. In terms of us wearing other ethnic costumes..we are sort of harmony on the appearance. However, that's how we usually go about to celebrate some of the occasions. Don't we? Well..what it matter is that whether we are all thinking along the same line to even show mutual respect to one another. To other races and as well as the community we live in..as in the group of people that we usually hang out with. hm..Hm..lately have been suffering from pocket-got-hole symptom. I dont have enough money to go out with others to celebrate Jasmine's birthday. aw. Sorry Jasmine and the rest. If i borrow money from others, i will suffer another pain of owing the money. hm... I dont know. The past experience taught me a lot. To be contented and as well as to make full use of the only resource you are given with and not asking for more. In some ways...this makes a lot of sense to me. I maybe a wealthy person..but i dont know how to spend my money wisely..in the end..i may just end up to have nothing. Why could someone with a few cents lead a meaningful life. Maybe it is up to the person mentality to even differentiate himself from being the "poor" catagory. yea? heehee. That's my 1 cents' worth of thought. heehee.
Gee..it has been so long since i slept so late. ha ha. usually i either dose off or struggling till late night. heehee..majority is falling asleep way too early. haiz. maybe i also need to balance out my sleeping time. Not to sleep too early or too late. Or i will be sorry and have to crawl up in the morning to finish up my homework. aw.
Life still goes on. in search of a meaning in life. to keep us ever-going.=)
Saturday, July 15, 2006 -{'2:21:00 PM
Title : [ Running a marthon ]
Hi everyone. hm..it has been quite a while since i've blogged last time. sorry. Not only that we are now running for a long marthon..we are also running with time. As much as i wish..i wish that time could really slow down a little for me to breathe. yea..and i know ..that wont happened. It is all up to us to maximise our time and to play, work , sleep, and bathe within 24 hours time.I want to have some fun too..like i told myself earlier..i am supposed to enjoy myself for the rest of the month. When i rush to get things done..i sort of lost myself in the maze of works. Maybe thats how our human nature comes in..playing a role to even tell our body that we are tired. but somehow..something in you kept you on-going.
Well..many things happened for a reason and for us to learn from it. I am not a perfect person. I do really make serious mistake at i could not even forgive myself. But...it's not the mistake/flaws that you make that make you a bad/failure person. I also must say..we are not born perfectly. As much as i know..all of us here are physically well...but we do have a lot of cripples and there in mentality. it is also not a split second for one to master everything..but to take years and months to even earn back each and every lesson. By someone telling...it might not work magically unless we are willing to dirty our hands through the process of everything. I dare say..it is something hard to grab on.
For all my life...until age 14 i dont even much a thought for anybody. Never would i know to even help someone out. or even be sensitive to others feeling. Well..seems kind of wasted..but the turning point in my life really make a huge significant for me. So..like i say..i am just like anyone of you. ordinary. But what i've understood so far really encourages me to go on and on. I dont see the end to what i've understood. For me..i'm still trying to learn to be a better person and i'm sincere about it. Nothing but the truth.
Letting go is hard..grabbing something too tightly is a torture to one's self
Monday, July 03, 2006 -{'11:27:00 AM
Title : [ Smile ]
http://www.stampnmadness.com/Be%20happy.JPGIt is easier to say than done. understanding this will maybe take a longer time than you think. getting it done might just take a second. Let go of what's troubling you and let your smile surface out. =)
-{'10:58:00 AM
Title : [ hectic ]
Hi everyone. hm..since school reopen until now..i guess it has been a busy and hectic week for everyone. back to the square one that everyone is rushing for time and struggling to get things done. Hm...maybe i'm used to be part of this kind of hectic life..while at times..i feel like just shelter myself from all these reality. Chinese O level oral has been quite a big crashing wave for me. i stammered my way through and somehow, i really think that i've already tried my best. I did want to correct my way out. But somehow..this kind of feeling left me back into deep thoughts. I've done my best at the moment in time. let me have some space to breathe out. hm..What is done has been done. i need to move on. even to the last drop oil in me...i can never stop. to even reap what you sow..there is a need for you to put in a certain amount of hardwork. Well..i wish i can define the amount of hardwork to the specific figure it is...but i cant. i guess it could never be measured. hardwork from all the days well soon pay off one day..sooner or later.
I'm going to solve something that i've dragged for all these while. like the snow ball rolling down the snow hill..it has got bigger and bigger. If anything happened..i will still face up to it. for once...i going to give everything another try. no matter what is the outcome. I've tried.
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