Title : [ mixed feelings. ]
Hi everyone. Hm...maybe i should come here often to deposite my floating thoughts into place. Lately have been going about aimlessly...peeps around me thought i feel sad. Well...maybe not. Enjoy the silence?peace?space for thought? Well...Ru Luan said something correctly..well almost correct...I am not cheerful after all. Ask me why? Yea..for the past 13 years...i'm in this title. Just when i'm trying to change my old self...yet i still see some of my past self within me. Good or bad? I still look forward being a better person..no matter what..i will always be my slogan! YUp. Just that i dont know who to confine into...i understand that everyone has his/her problems and unspeakable feelings. I hope i can help myself...i'm not going to lock myself in my own world...and i dont think theres a need to. I talk like i am 2 different person. Yea..ha ha..self confession. [Be the change you want to see]well said. It takes more than just time..determination too.Hm..exam is around the corner. Close! *cold sweat* I begin to feel the tension. Seem like O-level is not far away anymore...and that will end my secondary 4 life. Will the days to O-level like hell for me? I dont know. Why not lead a happy life than a sad life everyday...that applies for studying for O-level too. Let your interest guide you to a greater height...stronger motivation for accerlation to take place. Take action simply.Hm..this friday is speech day. Hm...actually theres a performace for my co members and I...But..things dont turn out well. Regardless how inconfident i am...but i cant help but to feel sad.disappointment. Well...my last performance for the last time is not gonna come true. It hurts. What can i do? Nothing. But am going to be the audience on that day..and see my 2 pipa juniors playing their piece...well..they are simply fantastic. Am proud of them..at least they uphold our co well. Good job.If one day i am going to stand on the stage..and that will also be the last time i step down from it. I've understood something...is to cherish what we have now...even through the difficult times..hang ON! course you might never know when you will achieve / lose something greatly. yea...and i'm saying out from my bottom of my heart. Nothing but the truth. YUP. I sincerely wish that everyone is happy. Smile.
