Hi everyone. Hm...maybe i should come here often to deposite my floating thoughts into place. Lately have been going about aimlessly...peeps around me thought i feel sad. Well...maybe not. Enjoy the silence?peace?space for thought? Well...Ru Luan said something correctly..well almost correct...I am not cheerful after all. Ask me why? Yea..for the past 13 years...i'm in this title. Just when i'm trying to change my old self...yet i still see some of my past self within me. Good or bad? I still look forward being a better person..no matter what..i will always be my slogan! YUp. Just that i dont know who to confine into...i understand that everyone has his/her problems and unspeakable feelings. I hope i can help myself...i'm not going to lock myself in my own world...and i dont think theres a need to. I talk like i am 2 different person. Yea..ha ha..self confession. [Be the change you want to see]well said. It takes more than just time..determination too.

Hm..exam is around the corner. Close! *cold sweat* I begin to feel the tension. Seem like O-level is not far away anymore...and that will end my secondary 4 life. Will the days to O-level like hell for me? I dont know. Why not lead a happy life than a sad life everyday...that applies for studying for O-level too. Let your interest guide you to a greater height...stronger motivation for accerlation to take place. Take action simply.

Hm..this friday is speech day. Hm...actually theres a performace for my co members and I...But..things dont turn out well. Regardless how inconfident i am...but i cant help but to feel sad.disappointment. Well...my last performance for the last time is not gonna come true. It hurts. What can i do? Nothing. But am going to be the audience on that day..and see my 2 pipa juniors playing their piece...well..they are simply fantastic. Am proud of them..at least they uphold our co well. Good job.
If one day i am going to stand on the stage..and that will also be the last time i step down from it. I've understood something...is to cherish what we have now...even through the difficult times..hang ON! course you might never know when you will achieve / lose something greatly. yea...and i'm saying out from my bottom of my heart. Nothing but the truth. YUP.

I sincerely wish that everyone is happy. Smile.

Hi everyone. Long time never blog. Hm..maybe i do same update. HEEHEE.

Saturday when back to school for CO rehearsal for speech day. Hm...they played well..just that i cant go along. I dont know why i lack in confident in myself. Seriously..there is someone better than me. Moreover...picking up the baton seems heavy to me. It got nothing to do with anyone..but myself.

Sunday was fine...just that its a bit boring. Nothing special. HOwever..HAppy EAster Sunday. Since young i always fascinated by the colourful eggs that they make..somemore can paint by yourself one. Amazing. Those eggs can be really huge. HOHO. Why i get to know so much is that i watch tv and read books one. LOL. Eggies!

Hm..we should always learn things by heart. Not by seeing or looking..but to let your heart do the job. SOmehow...we can get to know more about people throught this method. Gee...i'm totally into this...most of the time i am observing..heehee...and i reflect what i see and heard on myself.

Hi everyone. Hm...this week have been tough..but i've let go of what's bothering me. Hopefully..a clear and clean wash out will really help me a lot.

Hm...tomorr is cross country...am out there for 4e1 and as well as beating myself. MYSELF. Yes...since the beginning of this year..this has really been a huge problem that keeps surfacing here and there. Due to myself..i can list down the whole list of unwanted and unnecessary problems. YA. That is true. But behind this truth..i gonna work something out. Trust me. Even i have to do everything all over again. To the actual fact...i look forward to a happy-go-lucky life. However, that is not happening in my case. Theres work to be done and i have to do the extra work to make myself happy. I need to get back my old self. H.A.P.P.Y Just a five letter words already beat me. How about C.H.E.E.R.F.U.L ? Ya...sure takes more than an effort to write out and carry out. So..i guess nothing is easy...never. If anyone out there is finding an easy way out of everything..i dont think it will solve the problem..moreover..you are just fooling yourself.

I am not going to stay in the maze forever. I want to be out soon. Let my senses guide me through....one day..i hope i will be out. Standing and smiling at the exit of the maze.

Hi everyone. I'm very pleased to attend our very own drama production. I must say i'm really impressed by all the things. Awesome! The actors and actresses were all very entertaining and bold. The mutimedia group surely has done a very good job through the computerised display which leads the audience from one stages to another. ^^ After seeing this production surely brighten up my day. =)

Courage. A word which i seldom come in contact with. To the very fact..it might not even exist in my dictionary for the past 13 years. How...i understand the need to have courage..to give one a chance to do whatever one craves for. The ability to overcome an obstacle to achieve the desire result. I dare say..i am not the most courageous person in the world. It really takes a lot of guts and time to live out of one's comfort zone to see the change. Be the change you want to see. However...how many time have we surrender these urges and desire to human nature (resist the change)? I did not succeed always but i believe that once you have take a step out..it is definitely irresistible force that drive you throught a greater distace. I WANT to see the DESIRE change in me. I know its more just to say. Sometimes, i'm just nobody who dont want to live out of the comfort zone. Why cant i be always "on and steady" all the time..what is making me to hesitate over and over again? But one thing i'm sure...courage bring me to do the things that will benefit all...and for that..i will take on a try again...

The footprints are consealed back by the heavy rain drops. No trace.silence motion. After a rain...everything will come to a standstill...until the sun comes out. cheers. 

Hi everyone. Heehee..just now watch the campus superstar result. Hm...whoever is the winner does not matter that much. Why i say that? They have emerged from so many contestants..plus whats more is that they have a full and steady supporters from their school. Just by seeing them cheer...i can feel the unity and its really touching. Though i didnt trace all the series until now...but i guess...For one to be even recognised by everyone and from their school..become a really big fan to others. That's a very overwhelming thought. Heehee.

Heys...i'm really sorry to anyone i've let down or affected by me or anything. Yes..i realised that i am very inconsiderate. I sincerely want to get forgiveness. And...i shall not be affected by anything..and i will pull myself back as soon as i'm out of track. Lately have been lacking in these respose. Opps. I will stand up from where i am and continue walking on. Give me another chance. I shall not let my emotions take over me. yup yup. Beginning from now--11.20pm, 2/4/2006, starless night. =))

Hi everyone. It seems that lately i hardly update my blog. It's that i am lazy to do it or what..just that i cant find the right words to say. Am sorry.

Had been quite moody lately...but i've already let go of the thick and dark clouds for good. Now..i shall think no more but to live my life to the fullest. Come to think of it...whenever i feel troubled...it seemed to me that i am being tortured. And that is why i feel so unhappy. I need to remind myself that...all the people around me are not to be involved in or experience what i've went through. Only spread the warm and happy moments but no unhappy moments.

I need to push myself up to the hill...no matter what. Some day, Some how, Some what...Things will soon work out right.