Title : [ a special day. 250th post ]
Hi everyone. Hm...first of all..i would like to wish everyone a very happy valentine day. heehee. Is it what we call...the love is in the air? HEEHEE...nah. For me...it is a friendship day with many of my classmates. They are simply fun-loving peeps. HEEHEEHm...yes. I feel much better compared to yesterday. However, the stress i feel inside me has not subside yet. Haiz... I dont know what i am aiming for, which JCs to go to...and what to do when i step into the society. I am so clueless and helpless... Since primary school till...i have not really force myself to think about my future. I just feel that everything ahead is as blur...i just dont know where i am heading. I'm stuck to make decision. Ahhhh...i dont know! I know its time to leave out of my comfort zone and think about my future. N i dont know what is stopping me from all these. The sky tells me about something. Nothing should be staying where it is from this second to the next second. Everything just has to keep moving on. Be it force or willingly. Then where should be my holding ground? My instincts tell me that the place i am in now is my holding ground/base----Home. No matter how the external environment or people who are around you changes...things would always be the same at home. A place where i could find comfort in. No matter how harash things could be...i know this is the place where i can seek consolation. Yes..sometimes i feel that everything is going against me. I feel trapped and frustrated. But..when i calm down and think back about what happened during the last few minutes...i feel so remorseful. I resist to let myself go lose. Simply just hang in the mid air. So unsettled. I am so far from being a better person. MAY the force be with me. I will find my way back. back to my normal self.[[ The world is a looking glass and gives back to every man the reflection of his own face. Frown at it, and it will look sourly upon; laugh at it and with it,and it is a jolly,kind companion]]---William Thackeray
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