Title : [ the moment of truth... ]
Hi everyone. Wanted to blog yesterday..but my brother wanted to start his CS match. ( always ) Well...i should say i not longer hog on the computer as much as i did last time. Its always the use of computers which leads us to quarrel. I think i can do better than this...hope diplomatically..we can solve the issue before reaching our parents.( heh heh...better not)Hm...Yesterday was the release of the old level results. I went in and found myself bombarded with more thoughts as i walked out of the hall. I mean...why am i feeling so nervous and pressurised? HA HA...i think thoes who were there with me felt exactly the same...or am i too sensitive. I still cant forget the times when i took back my PSLE result. I find myself facing all these reality repeatedly..it sort of create a fear in me. A fear for history to be repeated. Hm...as they flashed the top students in 4E...i was elated to find that three of my seniors were in. I am so proud of them. They really did well... Like Janet who was beside me...she said " I want to walk out the hall smiling." Yes...walk out of the hall smiling..it might not be scoring like the top studemts..but is the approval we give ourselves after looking at the results. Mr Sin was right too...he said about the study pressure and work pressure. It was so strong and pushing hard on everyone to get things done and yet achieve the result wanted. I shall not wish for anything..but to realistically doing my part on what i should be doing...doing my best.When i reached home, i told my parents about the release of o-level results. My mom is reasonable...she said that she would not pressuries me to get top result..but instead go for my very best in studies. I appreciated that a lot. Course its like you dont need to face up with more pressure given. Yes..all along..she never pressurise me but maybe myself. HA HA...when have i come in and take the role as a parent to guild myself? HA HA...It was also the day when i could feel myself getting lose...all my thoughts were floated in my small brain. HEEHEE...Nevertheless, I shall not conclude at this stage. I need to have some space for myself to breathe. for my heart to beat. [11/2]
