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Thursday, December 22, 2005 -{'4:16:00 PM

Title : [ thoughts ]

Hi everyone. Yah..today went to Macdonald with Janet.

Today is also the day when the primary school students get to know where they are posted to. A big day for them probably. Some of them later came into the Mac. They are all from my ex-primary which is PCPS. A lot of memories were brought back. I look at their white uniform..their facial expression...the way they show each other their report books and certificates... I dont know, how i feel at that time. Numb. I dont get to feel the joy..or maybe i'm expressionless? I just went home alone. That's probably the time when i feel that i am not walking home..more like walking for like forever...everything infront of me seem long and quiet. Could it be that the choice of secondary school wasnt my first few choices..of course lor..with the kind of aggregate i get that time..how to go to better school. Something yet prove me wrong. I have not entered the wrong secondary school. Never. I feel that i am a real beattyian? Some sort..the attachment is there you see. And what makes such a deep impression on me was my turning point in secondary 3. Seriously. A steep and sharp turning point..which changes my whole 15 yrs life. This is also the very first time that i feel teachers are more than just a teacher who teaches you a subject. They are actually friends to us. Thats also something which i felt very heart-warming.I am glad that this turning point found me...or else...i am still probably a lonely soul. I elated...i've changed. I really enjoy my sec 3 life a lot. To the extend that i hope it would last longer? Something which i dont expect in the first place turn out to be pleasant. I am very grateful...really...

So i shall not ponder about my primary school life which bothers me a lot. Probably i miss everything. That's something which i am very sure of....