Title : [ things do not always work in this way... ]
Hi everyone. Many of us do have problems at time..and always reflecting on who you are. What you reflect on makes you realised the uglyness in us --we are never be perfect. It is true that sometimes we cant prevent something from happening..while on the other hand we are demanding it to be as perfect as mind does...To put actions into words seem as ever difficult... Sometimes i just cant help to realised how imperfect humans are..and so am myself...even my uglyness...which i never learn... I WANT TO CHANGE MYSELF! to a better person...a better person to show others the way, to help others and also to help myself too.. No point keep falling down the black hole and not yet doing a single thing...too much empty promises...and when will there be an end? I make a lot of unbecoming mistakes through out...leaving one after another unclear mistakes...uglyness..yah. I maybe seen to others as a clown in the circus...yet you never know what lies behind the smile...shattered... No matter what, i want to learn from my mistakes and from other people's laughing comments...no matter how many years i would take...i would still want to choose to be hurt and more determine. Never ever i would let go..let go my shameful mistakes and my thought of escaping..NEVER!as i touched across my heart, i felt a deep scar...nevertheless it is healed..but the scar is always there...a life time experience that i would never get to forget..
