Hi everyone. Went to school to have training with others. Chinese o-levels also taking place in the morning...so we have no choice but to hide in the computer lab. Find it abit werid in the first place since we are playing instruments in the mist of all the computers and cables..HA HA..Well..we got improve quite a lot...but theres a long way to go..argh..few more practice before we are going on stage..BLEAH

My mom sprained her ankle..=(. Swollen..and every step she took out seemed so difficult for her...Hope after applying chinese medicine she will be better... If there are broken bones..Aw...i really dont know...=( Maybe i should check out more of such stuff..i am so ignorant..=(

I just dont know why we can be so...er..HAI YAH...why we can be so pposite of someone's thinking...and what has went wrong? We are in different phase?...hm...........i am amased by this yet also think it is also contridicting that it bothers me quite a lot. It really obstruct some of the processes which i think it is good for making a change...maybe i am not the right person to say so...yeah...could be.-__- "who you think you are? "YEah..who you think you are!!!!!!!AHHH

Hi everyone. I am not going to say so much today..well..one thing that i am very happy about was what i observed this morning...it was so Beautiful...yeah. The clouds were so scattered...swirling in the crystal blue sky...awesome! I wish i could reach out to the sky...and pluck the clouds for you guys...HA HA..yeah...if that would earn a smile from you guys..ever will that be enough for me... I cant help but to keep looking up at the sky...hm..what about you? Did you all see that tooooo? Is it marking the last day of school with the beginning of the wonderful morning sky?!? The beauty was just a short pleasure for one...before long..it would be blown away by the wind...to where it should go to...I saw patters of rose in the sky..but Li Suan said otherwise..well..whatever to one's perspective..HEEHEE

Hm...never ever feel so lost for words. Maybe that symbolise how much something meant to me... Well, today was the last day of school..and many people were not around..But i guess i will miss the class and teachers. There is this sense of attachment to everyone around me. 3e1 is going to be 4e1 next year. Hope it also marks the maturality of each and everyone of us..and of cause we need to keep on constructing the unity...Have you see before how toothpicks can form a huge prymaid? With a thin and easily broken toothpick...what's more to do with it? You will only see the power of Toothpicks when it is in a whole...as a class too. I guess next year would be a year full of hope for everyone of us. Let's rawk on and SMILE...do you realised that...when there are more people smiling that you would smile automatically? You get this sense of joy to know everyone is happy. Not leaving anyone out...=)

[JAnet and JAsmine: Gee..thanks guys..can see that you all really put in a lot of effort. You all really leave footprints behind. It will always be there.yup yup=)]

Hi everyone. Today we went for a movie screening for [TUCK EVERLASTING]. I like the movie a lot..although its abit too lovely lovely..yeah..A girl who come across the spring of a family surname Tuck. What so different about the Tucks were that they never die due to the water they drink from the spring. Shot by a bullet? No sweat...they just simply wont DIE..yeah..This girl met her guy from the Tuck family and later found out about this secret of their long everlasting life. Life for them is never a cycle. They were always young as years passes by...that was why they had to always move about such that they would not be notice by others. " you would be like the stone near the edge of the river...and simply stucked there while everything pass by you." Isnt it going against the law of nature? The girl and the guy later fell in love...yet they seemed to be in different catogories. The guy make a promise that he would love her till the day he die...well, simply means that forever. The girl could be just like him if she went to the spring and drink down the water. Well..maybe that's not what she wants after all...unlike other people who craves to live forever. The day which her grandmother die made her realised that as a normal human being...she have to go through the different stages in life..but not stopping at one of the stages. From a baby to a child then to a teenage, to a woman, to a married woman, to a woman who has grandchildern and then to an old woman who die of old-age. The death of one create space for a new life to begin...naturally. When the guy finially came back to look for the her, she was already buried in the grave. Unlike other stories which have happy ending, this one surely the opposite. Maybe no so much about opposite...a twist? I dont find it is a pity...the girl is able to taste what it is like to live throughout the whole cycle of life. Just imagin, you drink down this water and what you can only do are so limited...within your age boundary...104 years old? NAH...you get to see other people die and moving on while you could do nothing...What so cool about able to live forever? Would you cherish and understand every stages of your life? If you were able to live your life to the fullest...dose it matters if you could get to live longer? We human beings are always asking for more and more things to sastify our demands...there are limitatons at times too...then what you would do? BE CONTENTED!!!

So much about the movie...yeah..it seemed to me that i am always surrounded by a lot of misunderstanding,unforgiving and hatred. Give me a break! If everyone could just not to think from his/her point of view but to spare a thought for anyone. Life could be so much easlier. Helping yourself against others dosent do you much good...you are always one sided...balance?
You strain every of your muscles in the body when you are so agitated about something which you think you are always right..enough...right or wrong is not for one to judge...when they were just a line of difference away...why not think into the small gap of right and wrong rather than heading for just one direction. I've seen so much...and i'm tired! Stop! If that is really the uglyness of this world...are you going to let it be always like that? Even before the end of the world arrives...we humans already fight one another to death...need any extra help? NAH...just see how destructive we could be...haiz... I know many things are not within one's control. If only everyone plays a part to pull the situation back...even it is out of control..it could get back into track at times...just see if we are willing to do that or not. Life isnt just about i, me and myself...you would short-handed in all of ways... Let's face it...we cant live without a link in the chain or a web...DONT push everyone out of the scene then you regret...it would be TOO late..haiz......................

Please...bring me to a place that i could have a MOMENT of peace!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=((

Hi everyone. hm...Guess what...year 2005 is going to end and 2006 will be here soon. Exaggrated? Nope...looking at the calender..you can really see how time passes real fast.LoL. Maybe i shall push forward my conclusion for this year. heehe.It just seem to me be that it is only the beginning of secondary 3..HA HA... Dated back to January...i went to school with a heart of " just do my best this year"..cause who knows..taking all pure sciences and with the risk of failing my english was not that cool after all..yeah. During all the months...i realised a lot more about more things that are as important as studies..so...maybe that's what we call finding the real meaning in life ba. yeah... I get to know my friends more...and to discover each and every of their talents. well...one word to describe them as.."cool!"..yup yup. Once you know them....is like finding a diamond ore from the rocks...you get to pick them up, purify them then keep them. yeah. Every diamond has its own brightness...some even glow in colours and comes in unique shapes...yeah! One thing i realised was that the time i stayed in school is much more than when i'm in sec 1 and 2. I can even go home at 7pm. LoL. More like a office worker to me...heehe. How about camping over in school..er..will think about it..HA HA...Actually quite fun though...i get to know my second home more..kekee. I also get to involve in more activities in school. Which i'm glad i have these opptunities..heehe...never before that i get to enjoy them so much...heehe...i get to learn a lot from these activities like team work and tolerance ...LoL..that's life compulsory skills..heehe. Hm...we have really great teachers teaching us this year too. Never ever get bored in their lesson..even so...theres always a twist and we will be laughing at the next moment...heehe.=) I can say that i'm really inspired by all of them to build up my interest in the subjects. What's more to hope for? You got great teachers and friends..LoL..;)....very contented.heehe. Being contented with the things you have really makes your every day a happy one...LOL..get the tick here? Yeah..to be happy could be as easy as that. Simply. I get to flex my muscles in areas which i once have the oppunity yet..i refused and missed it...Which is leadership. Well, when i'm in sec 1 and 2...i keep everything to myself...i, me , studies and home. Did i ever spare a thought for any of my classmates? Did i spend time with them like i do this year...nOpe. Or you can say i'm never suit in any groups of friends. To lead a group, you have to have the ability and equality. Why i say that...to have the ability is to deal with the work that is given and do the planning well...work within the date line with everyone's help. The ability to solve any disputes among group members diploymatically. To have the equality is to let everyone has a share. Equal share. Regardless of who you are, or if i like you anot. Equality brought about peace. Everyone feels that they are not being neglected and "useful" in some ways or the other. One would always find a way to build up confidence from here..yup yup..Which we could find talents and treasure them individually. When the work is done...your members and you gets to share the accomplishment joy together. The processes are the ones that weight heavier than marks. Want a beam balance to weight them? HA HA...I guess i have put in a lot of time into my CCA..yeah...true enough..the hard core training till 6-7pm. I could say i really enjoy the CCA i'm in now...Get to rawk on with Music is something i would never regret..HEHEE.yup yup. Opps..addicted.heehe.I admit that there are times when i really feel like giving up...always try to escape from the problems. Later, loss interest in whatever i do becomes a real pain for me. "spare me pleaseeeee"-_-..contridicting huh? YEAH...maybe its only when things get very contridicting that you would want to explore and understand them more...trace back to the core of the problems and wack them down...accuracy is proportionate to the percentage of success...Er..lame hor..yeah..*opps..heehe...i know i could be a pest any time if i continue further...wait uh...dont take out your insecticide first...BLEAH...heehe...let me finish my lasst few sentences..heehe..LOL. I find this year espically meaningful one. *wink* I really get to enjoy my schooling days..yeah..i've received a lot..and i wont ask for much...but just to have you around that makes everything possible really cheer up my day..heehe..LOL. Okie..now you can take out your insecticides...HAHA...*siam*...bleah...poor accuracy uh? tsk tsk..try again...;)..hao lah..stop irritating you guys..tata

Hi everyone. Yeah..kinda bored now...aw.. My brother has been hogging the computer for such a long time on MAPLE..tsk tsk..haiz..say until i dont want to say..waste saliva..LOL. Looking at him how he level up make me so frustrated..yeah lor...he kill 10 creatures only earn 0.01% or less experience..just image when his level goes higher....how slow it would be..slower than a snail ba..no kidding!-_-

Today, there was CO practice at 8.30am. LoL...I saw some scouts in school..and heh heh...others were all CO members. A new Shou Na teacher came and teach the shou na people. I know that teacher since primary school. He is very famous in SCO. Got one time i saw him on television blowing 2 Shou Na at one time. LoL..Hope our members can learn something from him today..yeah.=) Our performance date is drawing nearer and nearer...some of them still unable to fit in in the big group pratice. Hm...Jia You guys!!

Bleah...didnt manage to do much things these days...i'm still in a daze...yeah. When will i wake up?! Looking at the whole stacks of examination paper makes me very pressuring..lol..Exam is finally over..yet there's a long way to go....get what i mean? Long distance marthon...

Hi everyone. Yeah..actually decided not to blog but today's incident really make me think twice before i do so...yeah..

Life hasnt been more fragile and overwhelming when i saw the splash of blood on the floor... Bright red and wet. Never ever that it would come across to me that this symbolises death. Althought i didnt get to see the whole incident, i heard from my friend and justify with what was right infront of me...a lifeless body of a crow. Well, you may just think that it is not a big deal or what... Believe me, i actually feel the whole impact on me...which makes me sees another deeper meaning of life. Okie, this was what happened. A crow was killed by a spinning fan...haiz...i just cant believe the impact that cause it to fly to a distance...well..later it got up and struggled a few steps before collasped and end its life from the point onwards...yeah. Even recalling what has happened in 6pm plus in the school canteen, i cant help to shiver. Although i not at that scene, i can somehow can tell that it has the urge to fly home. To find it's family. Do you know that crow is a failial bird despite most of us dont really like it...its voice and the feather colour. I hope we can do our own conclusion and give it a chance to be part of the nature. It has display the true quality of what we should be like being failial to our parents. How many of us did actually do that...even said so...we dont usually show much of this quality... When it is young, it is being fed by it's parent. when it gets older, it took up the responsibility to take care of it's parent in return. Even thought they may not speak the same language as us, it is able to convey a strong message throught small actions like bring food to it's parents to fed them and as well as going back home to take care of them. The uglyest sight of it lies a beautiful heart...remarkable. yeah...to respect all life is to respect you yourself as part of the nature. Hm..having said so, some of us ( CO members and girl guides) brought it to be buried under the ground near the DNT block. We dug a suitable depth of the hole and let the crow lie in peace. There was quite a number of us witness it has it is being buried. The life of it has ended and i truely believe that it's soul would find a better place to go to like being recarnated to a human next time...to fullfil being a failial example to another household...maybe i think too far of..well...in other word..it can get a new life next time. When this incident took place, i observed the sky for a moment. It was crystal blue and the clouds were all spreading wide and across the sky...the view was so pleasing and artistic...it was totally a difference case from that incident. Hm... it somehow gives one a hope. Hope to another life. Yeah...

Having said so much, one thing we need to pick up from here. We need to and should cherish everyone around us. To all aspects of lives...yeah. Are you doing so?

Hi everyone. Yeah..managed to find out that this is going to be my 150th post. Still remembering the day when i started to blog..i wrote on daily incidents...and now..i have forgotten to write about all this which is then replace by all the heart-to-heart talk with you guys...how life really changes here you can just see...yeah...what about yours?

I guess...we have gotten almost all our papers back...even it is not..we can just roughly tell how we did ...yeah...brain power? NAh..just that only you yourself know the best! HA HA Seriously...during the preparation of my end of year exam...i was very pre-occupied with lots of stuffs....which botters me... I know that all my performances were not my usual... I CAN TELL. I CAN FEEL. Gee...so now i'm landed in no where...HA HA Be frank with you guys..even when i'm doing my maths paper...i wasnt concentrating..so .panicky? yeah... I just wonder...if an exam could really mark your standard....hm...what about a failure once in a while..isnt that going to cause a lot of distractions? Bleah...i'm beat...tired. Everyone has his/her own unslightly side...the greatest man in the world also went through lots of barrels..What makes them so different from all of us were that they can face their own failure as an opportunity...opportunity to fall and set out flying. Something in them which were so distinctive were that they have the pride and on-going motivations. Even when they fall..they would require themselves to fall gracefully...they art of gracefullness..HA HA..yeah...werid huh? But thats what they are doing which lacks in everyone. We tends to get ourselves splashed with "dirty water" and the unslightly look we will get...not embarrassing though...just that it is indicating us that we have a looonngg way to go!

Lately, i'm kinda tired...i sleep in the afternoon and early at night...HA HA....going to be pig soon..Opps..forget that i'm one of the pig family..heehe..MAybe something in me tells me to do so....let all that was troubling you to accompany you and lost in your lala land. HA HA... Think i really got a few nigtmares which is related to school HAHA... During the exam period..everyone was working very hard...think that will also caused how hard we slack at this dullest moments..YEAH..some sort of burn out..gee

New version: It does not matters if you get knocked down..it only matters how you get up!

So..manage to figure out your directions and what's that next step to do? Well...take your time...nothing is too late unless you surrender...DONT HAR!...HAHA...LoL.=) Are we very closely related to the sky? yeah..all our emotions and feelings seemed to be showing above us...go on well to suit our mood. Like today..its very cloudy and more dark clouds? yeah...BUT i see the dark clouds were moving away and replaced by the white clouds...HEEHE..anyone of you saw this? Be more aware of your surrounding even you are not in your best mood. Dont miss this out again!!!!=))

Here a picture i have drawn using the paint..yeah...always enjoy drawing..but not much chances to do so... looks werid? If i have the chance to take art lesson...will gladly to do so..heehe..=))

Hi everyone. Yeah...for thoes who are very sad and "d e p r e s s"...dont..not worth while and it kinda make me sad to see you guys so down. Yeah...it hurts for the one who get the result and the one who sees everything around...what has the world come to? To a standstill?! Where everyone just moaned about the past and "kicking" and crying what is already done. Get your spilled milk clean before someone discover it..HAHA...i know its lame...-_- A standstill to drown ourselves in our own sadness...i think this is the only time when the clock wants to slow down...reduce the damage? The time passed slowly..and that makes me truely realised what are my mistakes at one go....all and throughly...cruel?Nah...that's just what we will say when we want to console oursleves.

Marks seemed to be part of our daily essential things in our dearly life...watch out..it can choke you in just a minute..HA HA..yeah...It comes to me that this end of year report contains all our tears and unbearable emotions in it...yeah..complicated. I just thinks that when one cry..the world seemed to be upside down within yourself. You and your confessions. When consolation is on its way...it makes you wanted to spill everything out...just to make yourselve feel better...yeah...If only you believe in yourself that you would truely appreciated the chances that you would going to get... It dosent mean that the things that you have done didnt appeals to your wish...you are a goner....if that is what life is driving in you here...DOnt Say Die...numb yourself and dig out your die-heart to face it! The winner of the day would not matters much to you than what you are going to learn here...yes...

Got back the geography, biology and A math paper. Maybe accepting what i've done during this end of year and to drill in myself during the holiday...This gonna be interesting...nah..to see if i am going to give up half way! HA HA. I heard people saying that when you did something terribly bad or unaccetable..."you better go home and stack up double pillows before going off to sleep"....helps you to think better..HA HA...For me..theres no double pillows but i will doubled my food intake to boost up my nutrition level!!HA HA

Tomorrow, we are going to take back all our sciences...yeah...lets hope for the best of the best for everyone. SOrry, to what seemed to be thinking that you are more hurt than anyone...just that i happens to know...and whatever it is...i want to be there for you...=)

Hi everyone. Beginning of the week...hm..yeah..going back to school..always so familiar to me..yeah...=) I remember telling myself before school that no matter what is waiting ahead of me..either good or bad(most likely) i would not try escaping from school...yeah..

In the moring, we already had over first mass revision for our chinese paper..yeah..Totally unexpected and unwanted.. Actually, Kelvin told me about half of the sec 3 batch failed the paper...hai yah...and indeed..before i went, i wore extra amor and halmet..HA HA..yeah..What to do? yeah...get yourself prepare for the worse with the best equipment..good yeah?! Not as encouraging as i thought...the teacher say that 3E1 DO badly compared to other classes...JUSt accept it..we are not super or what..and maybe it proven that 3e1 is not out there to kill..HA HA. Do we only know how to memories and good for nothing?!? Nevermind...a surprise is what we going to give others next year..and the beginning of our nightmare..HA HA...What a joke man... Guess the first person who was so shocked was our Ms Lim..yeah..looking forward to her Chinese Lesson! HA HA ;)

Hm...did kinda average for paper 2..yeah..3 headed...1,2,3..yeah..3. And what i never ever expected and shocked was my paper 1. Tell you what..want to know? yeah...shhh...i cant write letter! Understand? yeah...dont think i need any eleboration anymore...you all can just gess it out liao..yeah. You will feel the pain if u got the chance to fall...*ah bish* and have the urge to swallow down that paper..!! HA HA...well...really out of the blue man..nevermind. And 3e1 got another lecture from another chinese teacher who marked out letters...Our standard had dropped...-_- Its more like buying stocks for me...theres ups and downs... hm..

Before we went out after going through that paper 1, i come across these 2 messages which were come in 2 magnets and were right at the coner of the white board. Yeah.. i think its very meaningful..and just in time to save me from my "d e p r e s s i o n"..yeah..hope you guys also benefit from this two message..get to feel the power of it..
It did boost up my moral for quite abit..yeah..just wonder why went we are down...there would always be something out there to let you hold on...and survive for the rest with stronger determination. That's why i say..no one can beat you down except ourselves...Arent we always struggling with ourselves?! Greatest mystery....yeah?

I still remember this, FALL TO FLY...yeah..get the experience of sinking down the floor helplesely..then you will get the motivation to struggle upwards....if that's the only way for us to learn..why not...HANG ON!

Hi everyone. Yeah...today was the day that meant for sleeping at home..dont ya all think so?! HA HA..yeah..no need to on air-con also very cold and cosy to sleep le..;)

The house was like a cold and stoney shelter, simply suit the mood of everyone's....and on the other hand..to avoid anything, i just stayed in my bed ..crudding with me pillows...hm...i just stared out throught my window..thinking whats its meaning... If this rain supposed to go with my mood...dark and dull. Why not just let myself sleep for the whole day and when i wake up..its tomorrow...beginning of another day..beginning of a day to cheer me up.

Went out to get my hair cut which had been postpone for very long beacause of examinations. Shi Qing accompany me as we also wanted to borrow story books...Er..very nerd hor..HAHA.. My hair is quite short now..feel so uncomfortable...like something is really missing somewhere..argh..but the jie jie who cut my hair was actually quite good..very friendly.yeah. Anw...Thanks again to Shi Qing ..=)

Tomorrow there's school again...seemed like school reopen after a month of holiday. Good to go back as i no need to rot at home anymore...on the other hand..i dont know what's unpleasant is going to wait for me near-by...I hate this feeling...

I make another big mistake...and i guess my retribution for it is that i almost cracked my finger...now it was like so sore..and i just accidentally knocked my hand against the edge of the computer table..another injury..hm... What is this trying to tell me...to watch out!?! Or something's bad is going to happen.. Or i am just think TOO much..argh...i dont know!

I just feel that people around me are changing...kinda lost now..

Hi everyone. Hm..morning there was chinese orchestra practice...yeah..and i almost reported late..yeah..i was lated for 5 minutes...SORRY ..really..i'm really sorry..for not setting an example..haiz..blame me ba..=( Ran to school and caught up with some CO members who were strolling?!? When i knew that it was already 8.30am..i said "see you all later" then continued to run to school...guess i had made a scene infront of them..hm..you all can just *shake head* or laugh at me ...i nevermind... There would be a performance for CO at the Singapore conference hall for the Lunch Time Concert..on 8/11..yeah..and we really need extra extra trainings... a chance to prove ourselves?! Maybe..and i hope it would be a successful one. I have much more to say about the CO..just that i cant find the right word and timing...argh..

I guess...today was a very "tedious" practice since we had such a break during examinations...and my fingers were like-not-mine..cant even pressed the strings properly...and they were all very weak..shows what? It only shows that i had not practice enough..if not this wont happened...yeah. -_- Some of the members were also late..late for 1 1/2 hours?..yeah...just dont know why they wont buy more alarm clock..yeah..like today..was quite shocked that i was going to be late..and have the urge to arrive there in time..but..do i see such actions from them...nvm..i think i going to give quite a number of morning calls in the morning..yeah..also thinking of charging them for this service...HA HA...Could they just come for every practice?!? Drag,pull or whatever. A full attendance is what i wanted to see all along...

Went out with my parents to Junction8..yeah..

I just wonder...not owning everything we urge to have is a happiness or not...simply..would be just stop asking if you could have this or that...but to just be contented with only what we are given and that's all... guess its a very tiring thing to always keeping up with all the "wants"...and if you let it begin, it would be a endless requests..longer than the bills that our parents will pay..yeah..

I want to keep my mind blank..as long as to keep out what is troubling me..*gulp*.

Hi everyone.=) Just changed my blogskin. Dont know how it appears..but i just find the glow of light from the ground very encouraging...indeed...in everyone's heart..there would always be a ray of hope and guidiances...

CO practice today..hm..How should i say..CLASHES?!? yeah... If only we could have a bigger heart to tolerate and forgive others..isnt it wonderful? Maybe this is never to be perfect..but can we make an effort to do so?

Graduation day for the seniors..yeah..hear them sing.. I guess it was a very heart-warming moment for all of them..after all..they had stayed in BEATTY for 4/5 years le... All the best to them...=)) Our teachers have just sent out a batch of students...hm...remarkable for their efforts through out the years which have touches many one's life....yeah!

I wonder when that day come..how i would react...nevermind..-_-

Hi everyone. Er..beginning of my-so-called "holiday"..haha..yeah..it seem so long since i ever take such a long break..feel that myself over the past few days..when exam was bugging me....i wake up at about 4 am to burn "midnight oil"...but whatever it is..dont know even if it helps a not..HA HA . And now..i can sleep till 8 am. What a big difference...yet it might cause damage to my daily route...nvm. Feeling so bored right now...seem like i am "rotting" at home!...Ms Loo always tells thoes who never bring her books one to " sit-there-and-you-simply-ROT!!" hahaha..yeah..and now i am a real life example. Just wonder if everyday there's exam...and it helps to keep me occupy...ERm....better not...later kana people punch! and also...the powerstation would surely close down very fast de..HA HA...*so lame*..Opps.sorry..Surprisingly, yesterday when i talked to my father about today not going to school...he ask me to rest and enjoy! Er...simply can believe what i'm hearing...HA HA...and i dont know if my father would say that after the next few weeks..when reality come into the scene. And..*proof*..i'm back to where i begin..yeah. I simply wish i could do something meaningful right now..not as in studying..but to fulfil my own request as in to help any people? Just do something that benefit anyone...just as long as...

I have watched 2 vcds that Hui Xin lend to me..One is ELLA ENCHANTED..kinda an interesting show..where all the magical stuff come into use..and how this girl, Ella, got her "curse" and how she break the spell with her own strength..remarkable..=)) The other one is a Korea show...theres a lot of fighting..but beneath..the message that i received is that...not all bad people are what we think of...something in them that we dont have which is quite valuable...and a common looking person and kind-hearted people is what we should always look out for..and not to sastify by looking at what seemed to be "artifical"...The purity-ness is the most important...which we could hardly find now...

It has come to my attention at i am not doing my best in something that i should be doing since i took up the ..dont know lah.. Really..how i wish i could have other people's approval and lets work on something together..instead of seeing them looking so bored and uninteresting..no passion. I wish i could plant a seed..that has a successful and strong character that anyone can learn from, to think about others first before oneself..to benefit others with joy and laughter and a universal heart to love everyone and lending a helpful ear whenever possible..from the start to the end...Whatever it is..i wish we all can work together...and be consistent enough and determined to see out next the batch of "fruits" . hm...

Hm..i;ve talked enough...and enjoy your "holidays" guys!

Hi everyone. Today i make quite a big mistake...felt so guilty...argh! This is getting so sicky man! First thought that come to me is to drown myself in all the junk food!...to the extend until i vomit..HA HA...after which..you will feel so much relieved! HA HA ...
Have you stepped into a sticky muddy pool before.? Yeah..remember sec 3 camp..we need to cross the swamp...so many aglae! Did your foot get stuck in the mud? Yeah...how will you feel when you unknowingly got your foot stucked? Sure the first thing is panic!..second is when you remember the instructor told us about to take it easy...lossen yourself slowly...from the tip of your shoe and slowly pull it out...no hurry... This is the technique that we learn from...to save yourself instead of asking someone to pull you along. To apply it to everything we do... Getting stucked in the mud isnt a nice thing..however when you finally got yourself released from a crisis or trouble...a sense of enlighenment you would achieve! When there is no one guiding you along..and you need to free yourselves..isnt it still depend on one self to remain cool and steady to get YOURSELF out? " you want to get out fast anot? If you want, do something NOW!!..RIGHT NOW!" yeah...

When you are still a baby..such things wont be much helpful to yah..as our parents or someone would come to our rescue to help us solve the problems like wet pampers, spilled milk...so on and so for..The list can continue to much longer... When you are happy..just smile or laugh...when you are unhappy or not comfortable...just cry it out! Sleeping takes up all your time and although you have nightmares...our parents were always right beside us when we woke up with a fright... As you get older, parents are not always your problem solver..and everyone has their own inner thoughts..You will find yourself for the need of upgrading your "skills" when encounter many "wars"....

Let me think about it...you too!

Hi everyone. Guess...physics was er...i dont know!..Well, i guess it definitely bring my all mood down to the drain. Not only this paper, others too...Guess if i were to cry over spilled milk..i think i could flood the whole singapore...and i will lose my own will-power...to face up my own problem. What's the used of getting to win everytime...can i get over my problems as determine as when comes to achieving the result i want..that is definitely not life should be like...so selfish and useless. I am just like everyone sometimes...and isnt life like that? Co-influencing each other. I like every subjects when i understand the true meaning and the awesome behind all the knowledge...and just do my best in any test... However, i dont know what i want now! "What I want?" Yeah...but i guess i cant even answer this...am i too concern about marks and for not doing well? yeah...What i can overcome throught the studying years should be more meaningful. Even that subject is difficult, i would not back away but just continue to "fall and learn". It's very painful..definitely...and when will i burned out and retired from everything...now? Later? Or forever? Lately...i'm in quite a low mania state...and where is my power station? Ha Ha...When life comes to this stage of life..i learn to encourage myself after a setback, a painful cry from my heart. It just need to take one to sort out all the problems with a clear mind and set on for the next stage of the life. Althought time could not be reverse back...we can have unlimited encouragements from ourselves...isnt that more precious? How many people actually know that you have the ability to be a conscillor and a great lead in our lives? When we are in troubled or setbacks...are we always reminded to check back to ourselves and give approval and disapproval to what is the main problem and find possible solutions..? Or are we seeking for people care and corcern, learning from one's experience? I think both plays a part. When tears rolled down with your undesirable feelings...are you going to wipe them clean and "restart" over...playing a role of an encourager and holding on pomps pomps to cheer on.. Or are we going to soak every piece of tissue papers until your house is out-of-stock? Also can ba...just see how efficient you can get over your problem..as long as you can do it! Life is a lot about learning. Learning from every bit of mistakes and wisdoms.

I have my setbacks...quite a lot...when i felt bounded by all this problem...i will learn how to savage all the pain...at the same time struggling to understand...finding a way to open up my problem. Unpredictable. Tedious at times. So, are you feeling the same as me at times? Hm...dont ever let this an excuse to stand in to your way...What about setting up traffic lights to give your life some order...settle one by one tactfully...=)

Hi everyone. Today seemed to be the last day of our exam. However...it's just a fat hope...and life continues...............

I just realised..when we are in a depress state..nothing seemed appealing. Life becomes tasteless and definitely meaningless... You wont sleep well or your brain would function properly...for all you think is what we called the "short sightedness"...so bounded. You can never look across a mountain and you stuck there...looking so anxious and also...affects other people who passed by...

Compared to a person full of inspiration and hope..life would be better. You would be the first to lead others out of their troubled,across any difficulty with patience and determination. You would also influence others towards optimistic. Nothing seemed to get into your way. You would fight till the end by encouraging you yourself. Even life is as ever curel..you would use your every love to neutralise it...

Are you in which catogory? Or u you seemed to be in the centre? For what i know...no people in this world is perfect..but there are people with perfect thinking that would be helpful for them in a long run. So, we could never have everyone thinking along the same positive line..but i'm sure that with great effort and love...this difficulty would be solve one day. To be able to do this...you need to have a strong and not easily influence character. Everything is changing...but you stood firmly on your stand. A clear mind to walk out of the life maze...

Hi everyone. Today we had Emath paper 1 and chemistry paper 2...dont ask me how i feel...course i simply speechless...I know everyone has to go through this..and i'm not exceptions...somehow i will push myself forward..not matter what! Looking at the sky..it makes me feel so small ..a pathetic half dot..so..exams are not as big deal as it is...just to see how far i can go...

I'm tried of trying to hide my feelings...yeah..and indeed..i somehow burst out in some ways...today...dont ask me why...just feel that what happened these past few days botter me a lot...my emotions are always changing hot and cold...sometimes i dont feel i'm in my normal self...

May tomorrow is a better day...yeah..get back to my usual self!!


Once i said...to get the happiness and joy..we need to make the first effort to find them...not the other way round where they come and find us...leading your life so miserable and torture.


Not even to the last minute that i would give up...never!

Hi everyone. Chinese Exam was a joke man...so easy to do since i never even know how to make any choice....blank is definitely an universal answer.

Biology paper 2 and A math tomorrow...I need to pass my A math so that i would not received THE "love letter"...what kind of love letter is that...i think its a poisonous love letter than everyone wants to avoid from..gee...*puff puff*...

How's your day? Not too good? How about a big feast that you drown yourself in all the food...or simply just SLEEP...sleep until your prince charming or princess come and kiss you..this is getting so crappy...sorry.

HA HA HA HA...KE KE KE KE...what these means huh? guess...Well..no need to think so hard..it is just a way to HA and KE...hm...unless you find the true meaning behind it...what is the most likely answeR?


Who know fate is all about..until the day come and unfold every single bit...a twisted ending is always we should look out for...=)

Hi everyone. English paper for today. Dont know how well i did..just that i've put in my best..i wonder if i could overcome this problem of always having border line cases...and i know the consequences for this...aw..

After school, i went home and eventually went back to school again to retrieve my books from the locker since i didnt bring my key...terrible. After much thought, i decided to go back school to take my books and study in the canteen. Very few people were in the canteen. When people are at home studying..i'm in school doing nothing much.. Now i realised that i have a lot of concepts which i found them new to me..=(...can anyone help me? hm...

WHAT to DO...i guess i have to put in more effort...i always believe that puting in the best effort..what ever result it is does not matter that much...but does this applies to me this year?!!?

Hi everyone. Yesterday, i made a donation to a someone doing flag day. It was for the community service. Nothing special though..it was squarish and green background. What is so meaningful that i wanted to mention here was the words of " One touches many Lives"...not only did this apply in doing deeds for charity...for me, i feel it there is another meaning for this. You..surronding by all your friends and family..they are the ones we live by each day...and do you touch these people lives? Not to mention if you touches other strangers lives... Did you do your part to make lives easiler of others in anyway? If one would able to touch so many lives...it would definitely make his/her life ever fruitful and joyful. Here is where we should begain...

Hi everyone. Now...its so late le..11.48pm. It's not a quiet night anymore...i woke up in a frightful sleep...for the what was happening wasnt as peaceful in my tired deep sleep. I wish i could stop everything...with my own capability...but everytime i will just stand aside helplessly...to my dismay. A kite which was held by a string...and the force were there for the own good of it...a message that no one can get across...each one has its own ideal and message of life..they cannot understand one another...there a slit second of silence and followed by a realistic ending..for they still coundnt solve the misunderstanding and the string just let go...When will they know..the art of not breaking each other's heart when a good ending could be concealed then...