Always smile =)..

2010-03-13T22:02:00.000+08:00

No boundaries.

2010-01-02T21:09:00.004+08:00

YAY! HERE comes 2010! WHeee:))

2009 had been filled with lots of events. Each and every one of them mark a milestone in my life. Mugging for A level>Working in Tuas(first working experience)>Released of A level Results>Making choice (cross road)>Finally settle my choice in Ntu>Surviving my first semester in Ntu>Having a long break right to the very last day of 2009. wow. Along the way were Ups and Downs...and I've grown much more as a person:))

Welcome into 2010! I've been holding very bright and cheerful hope in this year. Feel myself outgrown the tiredness soul in 2009 and I'm quite ready for a new start. a start to my new hope. a hope with plentiful faith.

Fly away...and carry all the well-wishes, my dear purple balloon. To a place where they would be answered. And of course, I will have to take my own lead first...n be a better person this year.

What's more, I simply feel so 'egg-cited'. Yes, the road ahead is filled with uncertainty and may we have the perserverance to stay on each and everyone's journeys.

Okay, this is weird of me to start saying this in the middle of my post. But I just want to shout it loud: ThANk YOu! To all my friends whom I've known thus far. (Hope you know who you are! :)) ) You guys are the little water breaks in my marathon. I will always look forward to see each water break with you guys around. U give me the momentum to see through things. :)

Haha..this is funny, it's been quite a while since I feel so relaxed and light-hearted.:) Love this feeling. Smile. Keep on continuing to smile. Not a smile in pretense, but right from the heart.

:)

And I'm heard. Right from the my heart.

*This post is delicated to those of you who still continue to read my blog and to U-my friends.*

2009-12-02T18:32:00.003+08:00

This is another long awaited post. Everytime I want to update this blog, either time is running out or my mind goes blank right at the moment when i sign in. Things changes. Nothing remain still. This applies to everything in this world. Isn't it?

Woah, just ended my semester 1 exam. It felt like a dream...But one thing to be grateful of is that everything is over. Finally can take a break from all the notes and rest :)

A few days ago, those past memories flood back into my mind. Not intentionally but it happened to be so. The pain still lingers but it no longer hurt like before. Those happy moments were still around, but they are fading every now and then as I recalled back.

I always believe that if a person uses his/her sincerity to deal with work,relationship or anything, he/she will get the satisfaction and enjoy the true meaning of 'joy'. But like what I said earlier in this post, everything changes. Changes do not mean negatively, it applies to positive changes too. To every case or situation, there will always be 2 side of the coin to consider. Need not crack your brain over which side of the coin...it just happened to be so. Take it lightly and move on. This is the precious lesson I've learnt as I grow. I'm thankful. From naive to wisdom.

On a lighter note, hope all my friends are doing well now. Exam is over. Play to the MAXIMUM man. :)) Take good care, my friends.

2009-11-08T18:20:00.002+08:00

展望 "Aspirations"

2009-10-02T22:11:00.002+08:00

展望 "Aspirations" -by Wang Cheng Wei

2009-09-27T22:24:00.001+08:00

I need a good rest. Embrace in faith. :)

2009-08-08T23:40:00.000+08:00

Hello guys!

Hm..where should I get started? Seems like I've just took another long break from blogging. Gee..I just don't feel motivated to blog. Lazy-worm. ><

Okie, I shall somewhere when I've ended my job in Tuas Power Ltd. It was really an enjoyable time spent with my fellow colleagues during the last day at work. Lot's of laughters and gift-exchanging...Those unspoken words seemed to linger around in the air. To me, I just felt a total sense of lost. I've been working for this job for more than 6 months. PHEW...I also can't believe I could actually hang in there for that long since working in office can be a little tooo DRY. >< haha..but don't forget the monentary gains too..something which propels me to continue working since I have to set aside a fraction of the money as household suppliment. Haha..and I've got a hot pink puma bag from them! Hot PINK! ( no joke) lolx.

Then, I've tried to enroll myself into the SPMS camp.Sadly, I was told that the dateline was carry forth due to overwhelming responses.AW. My heart totally dropped to the rock bottom MAN! Thanks so much to my hesitations and beating around the bush for NOTHING. argh. Okie...there's a dramatic turn when I got a call from my ogl-kaili who said that I got in. (eh, I don't feel the rush of happiness but gradually I guess. It meant that I would miss my cca's event.) Okie, I should really count myself lucky since I've got in among thoes in waiting list. yup.

OKie, here goes the fun part abt the camp. I was in SPONGEBOB og. haha. I almost wanted to laught at the name when I heard from my ogl. LOL. I'm definitely not a spongebob fan n I've never watch any of it cartoon series. LOL. But, after this camp, I guess it really change my perspective to SPONGEBOB! Thanks to all my OGL, Seniors-attached as well as my OG MATES.=) Special thanks to Kaili, Wee Jian, Xiuling, Weemin, Emmeline, Unice, Peiqi, Charis, Jackson, Jordan, Alfred, Kai Fong, Fuquan, Xian Zu, Ka Kui, Teck wee Celestine, Jia Lin, Isabella, Li Jing, Yili, Zhen Zhen, Syi Yar! WEee...Spongbobian rocks.=0) It's really fun to be with them in the camp. Hyper all the wayyy! ( I shall not elaborate the details here..if not..this post is gonna to be super long...)

I've finally made my new SPEC! haha..it's orange! OH MY. Hope it look nice on me.

Hm...The thought of going back to school really freaks me out. (Other than the secondary sch days when I would always look forward to go school after a break. My frens n the teachers r my motivations) I need to get back my strength and motivation once more to roll through this 4 years. Time to repair my biological clock and my sense of urgency not to be late. AH. The travelling time is another issue. I've never travelled so far to school before... How i wish my home is situated in Pioneer. AHHA. Fat chance. There's no turning back and all these complaints are just plain useless. Life needs to go on. I shall make the best out of what I'm in and what I've given! You are the one who makes the course as great as it sounds. Gonna make new friends and move on. That's something difficult...but I will give it a try. And to all my friends (currently and since the day I've met you) Pls pls pls stay in contact!!!!! You guys are always part of me...and shall always be part of me. Love ya all. (emo...) School gonna start soon. I'm slightly excited. heehee. I feel so nervous and uncertain. GEE..Oh yes, now i really regretted for not ace-ing in my map reading skills. I shall cross my fingers and hope I don't get lost in the campus. WHAT A WORLD AWAITING FOR US! WAaaaaaaa!

Ryuichi Sakamoto

2009-06-27T12:26:00.000+08:00

2009-06-24T23:58:00.001+08:00

2009-06-22T23:50:00.003+08:00

Hi guys! =) Here's a treat!

Yea..I feel like going to swim, run, cycle, play volleyball and roller blading. So random...haha.

2009-06-20T13:15:00.003+08:00

Hi everyone. I'm back for good. For the sake of returning back to the original state. lolx. chim uh?

Well, life after having a facebook is indeed an exciting one. Too much of it, you can still be sick of it. Argh. I was addicted to the games as well as the on-going happenings online...But right now, I feel like calling a temporary stop to it. The whole fb is so lag can? haha. Blogging is still the next best alternative. It's always from all the chaotic events. hahaa...I love this feeling.=)

Alright, some updates... Got my uni accptance and in the mids of processing all the required infomations. Kinda irritated by my father's constant reminders..but I know he meant well for me. Yes, learn to give n take. Bought my lappy. I wont say I'm totally happy about it..and I'm definitely not sad. I just feel very lost. Probably I'm having too much things than I supposed to have in the first place. In the first place, sook han don't have anything at all. oh wells. This may sound absurd to you guys, but I just need to have some time to catch up with myself.

Working has been a routine. I can proudly say that I have a masters in 'Ctrl C and Ctrl V' haha. Probably I will work till end of July if nothing goes wrong. HAHA. I've been working for the same job for more than half a YEAR! whoots. Some of my friends might even have change job quite a few times. This job has somehow grow my interest to work in a bank. Hopefully I can head to that direction someday.

I've finally know how to cycle a little. Not very steady course I have a huge problem with steering. haha. So if ever you guys wanna cycle with me...BEWARE. lolx. Thanks a lot to those who had taken their time off to teach me in anyways. ( you know who you r! love ya all) Finally I can feel the the wind! I hope I can go night cycling very soon. To anyone reading this: Let's go to ecp..i need more trainings!

Alright..I have not eat my lunch yet. Gotta go makan with my mommy!
On the last note: To all my dearest friend, take care and live your life to the fullest. Catch up soon and I really miss you guys!

Lenka-Don't let me fall

2009-06-20T12:53:00.002+08:00

2009-05-07T21:53:00.002+08:00

NYCO GOT GOLD W HONOURS!!!!!

Despite taking 2 days leave from work...I've never regret going to help out for nyco! Yesterday was my happiest day ( so long never feel soo..) Even though my batch didn't clinched this award in 2007, I still think we still deserve for our every effort ( same go to all the PREVIOUS BATCHES). When I was at the backstage with the other semiors n co mates... I could feel the intense atmosphere when everyone stared so hard at the television screen. One thing which I know myself very well of was that I could feel my heart singing along with them as they perform almost so flawlessly on stage. When it came to the results...we all jumped when we heard GOLD W HONOURS. It was a heart racing and filled with great sense of satisfaction which I believe at that v moment, our hearts are all beating on the same frequency!

I've mention to some about this: Getting gold w honours has a lot of different meanings in all of our hearts ( be it teachers, juniors, school and seniors) But, no matter what, this difference come together to forge a long-lasting and deeply embedded joy in everyone. They did us proud! =)))

Nevertheless, maintaing this award isnt easy. But it is never a "impossible''. There WILL be more to come...( Jia you BTYCO and NYCO ) and I truely love you guys to the very core!

2009-05-01T21:17:00.002+08:00

Hey bloggie! haha. I know I have been neglecting this blog for don't know how many times. In the past, this used to be a platform for me to pen down my immediate thoughts and just by doing so...it makes me much more enlightened and happier. And right now, after so many years of blogging...things start to change for me. It's no longer about pouring everything here but I need to really cope with my thoughts and respond to it in yet another different way. Well, blogging will still be an open option for me since I dont have facebook account. Maybe this is just another means of communicating with the outside world..and my friends=) yupp!

I've been struggling with myself all along. HAha...now I get to know how much I know myself. LOL. yup..maybe that's the period which everyone has to encounter and I would like myself to really understand what holds for me the most. Also, it's still hard to figure out what is needed for a relationship to turn out right. hahaa...forever a mystery to me. Rightos...one thing I've finally thought about is the fact that...nothing in this world is useless. It is about us giving them a meaning that these things seems valuable and worth pursing for. Right?

On a lighter note...just be happy ya?

Well done for my beatty juniors who had did their v best in syf. Every experience is a learning journey.=)

JIA YOU NYCO for the upcoming SYF. cheers=)

2009-04-09T22:12:00.001+08:00

Sometimes when we touch-Olivia Ong

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kEoEyHNhXmc

2009-04-05T17:39:00.004+08:00

2009-02-25T20:42:00.003+08:00

Hi everyone.

While I was staring into space in the bus, I saw a rainbow stretch across the sky. It's my first time seeing such a beautiful and complete rainbow. I feel so happy yet, there is a slight sadness lingering within me. why?

-Dear rainbow, you've brighten me. =) Will you visit me again in you true self?-

I'm BACK

2009-02-10T23:15:00.003+08:00

Hi everyone.

I know it has been super long since I've blogged. Let down a few loyal readers...haha. Sorry.=) Well, lately I'm very much occupied with work and rest. Also spent a great deal of time thinking of random stuff. If only my thoughts were as plain and simple as a child...No wonder people used to saying that as you grow up, you will encounter more problems and you will worry much more...Gee. But, comes to think about it, some of these thoughts are simply useless...and maybe that's what we think when we observe around us.

Have been trying very hard to get hold of myself despite all the things happening. It takes a great deal of effort to resisit certain temptations/ desires. RoAr. And I can't make sense as to why people need to pick on others when another party has tried very hard to gain acceptance. And why dampen this true and heart-felt warmth with thoes spiky and hurtful words? Till I fully understand what is going on, I shall continue to explore about this. haha...ok..think simple and act simple!

I've finally released myself after a night walk with my mom. Haha..maybe I can't stand the practice of sticking ur butt to the chair for hours and not even exercising ur body....AW
Hm...I shall pick up my swimming habit. Yes. DO IT!

Last but not least, hope you guys have fun at work or at home. Take care n JIA YOU!

2009-01-26T23:27:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW (NIU) YEARRRR! Mooooo..Mooo...

-wishing all a joyous and exciting celebration ahead=)

-Good Health!!!

-Maintain good relationship with your LOVEs=)

-BE ENPLOYED

-Have enough wealth to get the basic covered=)

-Smile more

-Be contented

-Stay focus and hardworking( like our dear niu!)

-May the economy crisis be over soon!!!

-Talk less, Do more

-Care for others.=)

-N May all the good things be with us=)

新年快乐！事事顺利！合家平安！心情愉快！

2009-01-04T11:30:00.002+08:00

I just want some peace. Any understanding souls? Being quite doesn't mean I'm heck care. Am I just a person to be thrown around easily? Seriously, caring for others need more than just the thoughts but rather, the courage to even stand by when all the things you've done is to no avil.

2009-01-04T11:04:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone. Here's Jasmine tag. Sorry for the late replyy!

1. The person who tagged you is ?
Jasmine
2. Your relationship with him/her ?
Know her for 4 years. Is that consider as "old" friend? yup
3. Your impression of him/her ?
Good at talking, loves to read book, sometimes 'suan' ppl, socialable, good listener.
4. The most memorable thing he/she has done for you ?
The period of time when I met very often with her to study together. Although not the most memorable thing u would say. N the times when she gather the whole clique to help me celebrate my birthday.=) Quite unforgettable.
5. The memorable things he/she had said to you ?
Toots. You are so aunty. Yes, aunty sook.
6. If he/she become your lover, you will ?
Haha...no. The lover position has been reserved for someone. LOL
7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be?
Taller. That's one thing. Let's not discuss the 'if' when it will never happen...lol
8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will ?
That's the last thing I would want to know. Maybe not to disturb her life anymore...disappear.
10. What is it you want to tell he/she now ?
I also haven get to talk to you on sms a lot. When we talk, always a few lines de. hm...
11. Your overall impression of he/she ?
Lovable friend=)
12. How do you think people around you will feel ?
I hope they feel happy n comfortable=) If not, pls tell me!
13.The characteristics you love of yourself are?
Stable and analytical.
14.ON the contrary, the characteristics you hate yourself are?
Some people said I look very stern. Maybe I shall work on my facial expression! N be more tolerative and forgiving.
15.The most ideal person you want to be is?
There's not ideal. But i wan to be a better person. Not to be anyone, but just be myself!
16.For people that care and likes you, say something to them.
THANK YOU! I shall kept them all in my heart!
~ END~
Sorry for not completing the tag. Just feel that maybe you guys can tell me what kind of person i am in person. yupp.really!!!!! Thanks!

2009-01-02T22:42:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone. Here's my offical post in 2009. Maybe this post is going on a little heavy topic, but do bear with me ya? Heavy, yet comes from my inner thoughts n feelings.

Just now went for a night walk with my mom. My mom was talking to me all along and I listened silently. I wonder if she realised that I was very quiet throughout the walk. haha..This is not important, but more importantly, as I listened, I discovered a whole deal of insights and reflections which strikes me hard. Experience will never bluff, past experience will only serve to lighten up your path for any similar trace of the past and enlighten you to be more alert and careful. That's how we learn, don't we? But tonight, I had special sediments about what my mom told me. It has been so long since I listen to her by heart. Afterall, mothers are always the first person to shower care over their children =) - not forgetting fathers, who usually support the whole family financially=)- Well, it is kinda amazing that what my mom said applies to me. lol. Was kinda shock but maybe she has that experience since she went through my age before. What a listening session! I shall learn to be appreciative of others, no matter if the person deserve it or not.

It's has been so so so long since I've done my reflection. This shall be my first reflection in 2009. Yes, am still learning...

相识满天下, 知己有几人。

2008-12-31T22:25:00.009+08:00

Hi everyone!

Tomorrow is the start of 2009. Maybe I should end off 2008 beautifully with a few updates=)

1) Esplanade trip with CO people. Went to watch with a a group of people ( including some beattyians and seniors.) I must say, this time round de performance was special and brilliant=) NYCO rocks too=)

ZHI WEN n me=)

Estelli, me, Veron!

BUDDY!!!!

HAha..self timer! lol. we look so small in thereee...

WOAH! First time taking photo with Ding lao shi? N Our ruan teacher! LOL. Memorable

2) NYCO FAREWELL!

Haha..kinda nice to be back to the same music room, sitting on the floor and chatting with juniors and seniors and last but not least, the v few of of US( our batch). LOL. Oh wells...hopefully there's another gathering soon.

YAY! That's the cup the juniors have made! Am touched!

Buddy's n mine's!

FAREWELL CAKE! haha...thoughtful enuff. Can make it as Senior n juniors gathering too..since so few of us turned up. faints. LOL

1st: WEI JIAN! lol

2nd:Shumin, Veron, Huifang, Ziting, Chen chen

3rd:Ah pek aka lester, Dominic, me

3) Christmas eve celebration with lisuan, veron, hx. Went suntec to walk n makan good food. HAhahaa...good choice to eat pasta instead. =)

Posting infront of the christmas tree.=) haha...I realised this is the only group photo. (the rest too big to be uploaded...faints)

4) YAY. Clique gathering with Sherlyn, Qying, Ruluan, Jasmine, Heng and hx! ( To Janet and ShiQing: WE MEET UP FULL FORCE NEXT TIME K?)

HAhaa..we went v8 to makan. Hx and I were like so FAMISHED since we skipped our lunch for this grand dinner. HAHA.... And our Dear Heng was late..( printing cheques) Haha...Had a super fun time catching up with everyone. Despite so long never see them, I still feel as comfortable talking and laughing with them. Yea..Really wish this can go on n on. I really hope to see everyone next year. Can we guys? TAKE good care n STAY HAPPY ALWAYS! ( faints, we didnt take any photos. wait till it's full force! heehee) Time flies, we need to put in more effort in catching up so we dont lose anyone behind. I hope this apply to all my friendship with EVERYONE and ANYONE. You guys will always be with ME!=) Am quite an emotional person, but good to cherish everyone yea? Let's keep things intact!

LAST BUT NOT LEAST!!!!! I hope 2009 WILL BE A GOOD YEAR AHEAD FOR MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS!!! NO MATTER WHAT, BE THERE FOR EACH OTHER THROUGH THICK AND THIN! SMILE ALWAYS. Let's change our surrounding by changing our mentality! I wish next year will be a year for me to grow. To learn, To let go, To Tolerate and To Love! CHEERS! START ANEW!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR, 2009!

2008-12-25T00:34:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Hope you guys will enjoy it! CHERRIOS. Smile n take care!

p.s: Shall Post a longer entry soooon. stay tune!

2008-12-04T10:11:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone!

Well, these few days has been quite slack for me. Well, tuesday's class bbq at zhe Jun's house had been quite interesting and fun! Thought I never ate much food over there, but maybe getting to know more of my classmates helps=) heee. Throughout the whole bbq, most of the time I was standing near the bbq pit cooking food for the rest.. LOLX. Quite fun though...but you will smell very smoky and disgusting after it. I was like so embarrassed when I took train and bus home norh. LOLX. Well, that speaks everything, you gonna pay for the price for everything.
Waiting for pics though...(hopefully I can post them up...cause last time I had difficulty posting large pictures up..faints)

Hm...been quite down lately...(maybe too much things going on, but things aren't just going on the right track)

Gee...think thoes went for prom and post prom last night are still soundly asleep...heehee. I've never been once to prom. Oh wells.=) Hopefully I would get a chance to experience that myself!

On a lighter note...HAPPY 18th Birthdayss to Ling and Shiqing! May you guys stay happy and cheerful FOREVER LONG. Cheerios!

Okie, that's all for the time being.

-Everything will be just fine...feel for the calmness...-

2008-11-27T22:44:00.005+08:00

Hi everyone.

Second post for the day. Well, it would be a meaningful one...

I've borrowed some books from tpy library and one of them is a kind of self help book.

Walking Tall ( overcoming life's little challenges)

Anthony Gunn

*Gonna extract a small chunk and share with you guys.*

" I hear and I forget

I See and I remember

I do and I understand"-confucius

____________________________________________________________________

" Any change, even a change for the better, is always accompanied by drawbacks and discomforts"-Arnold Bennett

____________________________________________________________________

"An archer competing for a clay vessel shoots effortlessly, his skills and concentration unimpeded. If the prize is changed to a brass ornament, his hands begins to shake. If it is changed to gold, he squints as if he were going blind. His abilities do not deteriorate, but his belief in them does, as he allows the supposed value of an external reward to cloud his

vision."-Ken Fox

____________________________________________________________________

Here you goes. Meaningful, aren't they? I love the way they craft words so explicitly to express a certain ideology or practice. =) cheers!

Alrightos. Nights!

2008-11-27T09:18:00.002+08:00

Saw this taggie on Jasmine blog. Here it goes...( Faints, it's super lonng.)

1)Single, unavailable, naked or flirt?
Yes, Single and avaliable. LOL. Thoes who know me well should know. :P

2)Are you happy with that?
Somehow, you will get used to it=) haha. Let nature takes it course ba=)

3)Would you still kiss your ex?
No. Faints. Give me an ex first, and I shall consider. LOL.

4)Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yups. By my close friends.

5)Do you believe there are certain circumstances where cheating is okay?
No. It's never okay with me..Maybe I'm a little too particular about it.

6)Have you ever talked about marriage?
With a group of close friends. In reality, No.

7)Do you want children?
Can consider. I think it is more of a 2 person choice than mine=)

8)How many?
1-2? It depends on various factors.

9)If someone like you now, would you want them to tell you?
If the person is straight and decent, yes.=)

10)Do you want someone you can't have?
Sounds so desperate. What is yours will always be yours.

11)Have you ever been in love?
No.( Till the right guy comes)

12)Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
Yes! It's important to couples to do that.

13)Does your ex still have feelings for you?
NIL

14)Do you believe in long distance relationship?
Well, kinda hard to say if I believe or not. Distance makes the heart fonder? What you think?

15)Do you believe in love at first sight?
Yes, only at the right time.

16)Are you perfect?
No. Let's face the reality. yupps

17)Are you tall?
Quite tall.

18)Are you in your pyjamas?
No. It's 9.30am now.

19)The last friend you saw?
Hui Rong.

20)Last talked on phone to?
Serene( primary school fren)

21)Last person to text you?
Huixin=)

22)Favourite number?
7! Don't ask me why, I just got a special feeling for it. keke

23)Colour?
Brown, white, orange, light purple, black and light blue

24)Food?
Anything that is edible. Not the case for seafoods, course I'm allegic to them.

25)What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up?
Go toliet and get wash up.

26)Do you have anything bothering you?
Yea. Quite a few.

27)What's the last movie you watched in the theatres?
Long time ago. haha. I forget the movie name. That was the time when I watch with Jasmine and Ru Luan.

28)Where is the last place you went?
Swimming comlex and amk hub.

29)Do you smile a lot?
Yea. hahaa. If I'm really happy, I don't just smile. I laugh instead.( Jasmine knows that very well...LOL)

30)Do you wish upon stars?
When I'm still young. Now I oberseve stars.=)

31)Are you a friendly person?
Yup. I think so. Am not a really 'dao' person...so no worries.

32)Where did you have your sleep last night?
My bed

33)When was the last time you cried?
Can't remember. But I do cry. It's a natural way to get the dirts out. LOL.

34)What was the last thoughts before going to bed?
Sleep. Zzzz. Only when I'm bothered would I think of them.

35)Rate life as of it now, one being bad, ten being great?
8. Not too bad. There's still room for improvement. LOL. Faints. Just be contented!

36)What do you hear right now?
Nothing. The sound of my mom brushing her teeth? LOL.

37)Is anything hurting you right now?
Muscle ache. I swam too much yesterday.

38)What's your favourite month?
Jan, June, Dec

39)Are you missing someone right now?
nope.

40)Are you tired?
Mentally: a little. Physically: quite

41)Are your parents still married?
Yup. They will always be together.=)

42)Real name?
Fong Sook Han. It can't be fake. LOLs.

43)Eye colour?
Blackie

44)Male or female?
Female

45)Crushing?
Not for now.

46)Hair colour?
Shades of Brown.

47)Sweats or jeans?
Jeans.

48)Phone or camera?
camera will be good. But i dont have one.=( Am quite sick of phone. LOL.

49)Health freak?
Moderate. And it depends.

50)Righty or lefty?
Righty. My bro is the only lefty at home.

51)Smoke or drink?
None. Hate such stuffs.

52)First best friend?
Mei yu. I've known her since kindergarten.

53)First enemy?
Can't remember. Which is a good sign. haha

54)First vacation?
Australia.

55)Eating?
Not now. Later. Thanks for reminding me. LOL.

56)Drinking?
Nope.

57)Listening to?
Water flowing from the tap. faints.

58)Plans tomorrow?
No idea. Wait for phone calls. Read some story book and maybe exercise.

59)Your other half...Lips or eyes?
Eyes.

60)Your other half...shorter or taller?
Taller!!!

61)Romantic or spontaneous?
Romantic and spontaneous. Trust and faith keeps the relationship going...

62)Sensitive or loud?
More of sensitve than loud. Someone who can listen to me..even when I'm not talking.

63)Hook-up or being in a relationship?
Being in a relationship.

64)Have you ever...drank hard drinks?
nope.

65)Have you ever...lost glasses or contacts?
Glasses. During LTC camp.

66)Ran away from home?
Never once.

67)Broken someone's heart?
I hope I don't.

68)Been arrested?
Last thing my parents wanna hear about it.

69)Do you like someone?
Once? That was in the past.

70)Are you seriously happy with where you are in life now?
I am. It's my part to make it more fulfilling. ^^

Tag 6 people to do this quiz:

1)Huiping

2)Li Suan

3)Veronica

4)Huixin

5)-

6)-

2008-11-25T22:11:00.003+08:00

Hi everyone!

Whee..today went for job hunting with Siew Cheng n Huixin. Turn out that siewcheng came first before hx( when I actually I actually thought siewcheng would be late. opps. Sorry sc!) HAHA.. well, we chatted for a while before hx came after 30 mins waiting. Zzz..lol.

Went to check out recruit.express. Woah, there are already lots of people waiting for interview or signing up forms. Phew. Manage to find my primary school fren serene working there. She looked like she's darn busy and a little out of breathe. She pointed out there economy is not doin well right now and we might not find jobs so easily. RECESSION people!
Right after, we went to fareast to do some shopping. I think it's more of me shopping than the others did. I wanted to look for shoes and bag. Hahaha...I even kept chanting "bag, shoes, bag, shoes, bag, shoes" non-stop until sc n hx dots me to the ultimate! HAHA...Going crazy soon!
Well, end up not buying anything...(I'M TIRED!)

After which, Hx n I went to take bus after parting with sc. We went all the way to lorong 8 market and I bought my bread while hx bought her bali drink ( she craved for tt!) We walked all the way to my block and I went up to find food for hx. LOL. In the end, I only managed to coop my fruits for her. heee. We talked for a while then went to bishan. We went to look for more jobs and also did more shopping.( Hx managae to buy a shorts too...=)) heee. Shoes,bag,shoes, bag...

After we are done with shopping, I requested hx to go w me to amk hub. hee...opps. Hx was like super tired by then. ( SORRY HX!) This is the funny part: Hx lead the wrong way and we end up in the wrong train. When we went in, I saw this guy dropped his stuff. But in the end, when I managed to get his attention that he has dropped his stuff, hx pulled me out of the cabin before the door closes. OHMY! I was like darn paiseh lo. I don't know the guy know who has actually alert him when everything takes place so fast! hahahaha..yea, hx n I had a good laugh at it!

AMk hub has a bag fair(something of sort) I was like so elated to see that scene when hx pointed out to me. HAHA..but I didnt bought any bags there. Then, went to hunt for shoes which is BiG enough to fit my feet. yay! Finally! I bought one shoes for $19.90 w additonal foot paddings for $1. (ex, but at least I have a decent shoes now!) Gonna collect it tomorr!

FINALLY, we ended off by buying some goodies at the basement and off we went-home sweet home.

Oh yes oh yes...There's great muffins at Lorong 1 toapayoh market. It's darn tasting( Went there with Li Suan not long agooo..) Do try them out if you ever go around there area! One cost $1.20 ( definitely worthwhile trying!) Hahaaa..I sound like some promoter. geee..

Alrighto! Nights=)

2008-11-22T14:43:00.011+08:00

Hi everyone!

Yesterday was a fun day at sher's house. =) Yeah! It's been so long since I have stretch that much of my muscles playing wii. It's amazing. I've never seen such a cool thing lah.=) Well, am having muscle ache all over. Shan't elaborate much....yupps.

Oh yes oh yes. I found my niche area: BOXING! HAHHA...afterall, am not so noob at computer games k? hahaha. YAY! Ruluan also inhert my genes! lol. Heng rocks in music game ( for all the 3 rounds, my scores are always half of hers. OH WELLS..heehee) Let's meet again! Next time I shall do some stretching before playing..hee.

2008-11-20T23:59:00.022+08:00

HELoo everyone=)

Haha..right after physics paper, went out Tze Ting, Siew Cheng and Tricia to somewhere near marina sqaure. Well...end up not buying anythings there..lol. (shall upload the photos next time=) yups)

Right after, Tricia n the bunch manage to send me off to City Hall Mrt station. Gosh, I seriously would lost my way if I ever go out alone... Hm..tricia suggested me to be bus driver..but the thing is...I will then only know A SINGLE ROUTE. hahaa..well..better than none. faints.

Yay, sherlyn came early to meet me! If not, I will just be standing there playing hp games. YAY! haha..we went walking aimlessly while waiting for huixin to come. Ok, let's fast forward k? HAHA...Yup. So, we met up with Heng, Janet n Jasmine. We end up in KENNY ROGER n send sometime crapping in there. Right after, we went to makan ICE CREAM. DARK choc!

Here you go..it looks gross yet tasty!

Next, we went to esplanade................

Sher, Heng, Mee=)

Jas, Net, Hx=)

Emo, EMo, EMO!

Haha..i seriously think we got our hands entangled! HAHA=)

Well, i would say, it's a good time to stone every now and then...n to keep things going. I long for this feeling, yet there's still emptyness within me. >.<

Haha...WE R FAMOUS!

Randomssss..

Oh well, Shall blog again soon. Will update some of the class photos if possible.=) Take care n SMILES!

******-heng was here =P ********

( the previous blogskin can't work...faint!)

2008-11-20T01:09:00.003+08:00

Hello EVERYONE!

Here's a new blogskin! Yupps. It's a new beginning right aheaddddd! Shall update soon! TATA!

-Be Brave, Don't lose the faith and hope! Keep going, keep trying!!!-

2008-10-10T18:15:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone.

Graduation Day. When I woke up in the morning, I felt that there's something special. Indeed, a mixture of excitement, a little lost. A sense of reservation as i looked up into the sky which slowly turns from darkness to brightness. One which was filled with array of rainbow colours. Yes, it did cheer me up a little. I used to always look upon the sky for a sense of comfort and direction. It does not fails to always open my clogged mind and a narrow heart...and slowly, peace and order begins to set into my heart and mind. I love this feeling. Tranquility is the key.=)

When I stepped into the school boundary, I started to observe the people and the surrounding whom and which I have neglected most of the time. ( yes, do open your heart to see things around you. set your heart 'alive')

Before going to the Hall for the graduation ceremony, the whole class went to a classroom to wait for Mr Lau, my phys teacher. Gratitude and sadness soon overwhelmed me. I believe, I will never forget this day, this teacher and this heart-to-heart talk session. Infact, it made me recover back my true self.

I did enjoy the ceremony...one which was filled with many teacher's well-wished and humorous video clips which were prepared by all the departments. Other than thoes laughter we had after watching...I also felt thoes words meant so much more to me. Yes, I will smile and embrace at whatever comes along.

Afterwhich, I took many photos with class, class clique, buddies, teachers and even the principal! ha...Yes, I shall fill these people into my life, for a sense of completion and encouragment. Given a short period of 2 years, I've grown my fondness for these people.=)

(p.s. Life is WONDERFUL!)

2008-10-01T21:05:00.004+08:00

2008-09-08T13:21:00.004+08:00

Hello everyone.

It's the starting of prelim exam...Hang in there till the end of time man. faith

Jia you ppl. May the strength be with us!

Yes, don't be afraid, don't escape from it. Face things bravely with a strong and determined heart.

2008-08-12T22:56:00.003+08:00

Hi everyone!

I really think he has a good voice..I'm moved by his songs.. enjoy=) JIA YOU!

2008-07-25T20:58:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone.

Came across these wonderful pointers from one of the chain emails:

1.When you lose, don't lose the lesson

2.Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and Responsibility for all your actions.

3.Spend some time alone

Have faith and hang in there.-What does not kills me make me stronger-

It's TGIF. Never really appreciate it till this moment in time. AZA!

2008-07-18T18:32:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone.

Hm...I like this song a lot. I believe everyone deserve to be love. To love and to cherish. To be contented and to be grateful. Let it go...

2008-07-11T18:18:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone.

I've tried to post something up yesterday, but too bad...the pictures can't be viewed. In the end, I just take it down course without the pictures, words might not bring out the best effect. Oh well...

I'm quite happy today. We got a new econs teacher. This teacher is the only or the second one whom I find him very encourging and inspiring. I've longed find such teacher in NY. Not that NY teachers are not good, but it's good to feel the same feeling like back in Secondary school days. By the way, the teacher whom I'm taking about now is Mr Lee. Everything is just not too late....let's hang on there...

It's a tiring day. I shall stop here.

Tomorrow will be a much better day. Don't sigh, don't frown, N don't lose your smile=)

2008-07-04T11:05:00.007+08:00

Hi everyone.

Well, mid year was already over. Or is it just the beginning? I felt relieved and lost at the same time.

Sometimes, the uncertainties in life left me wondering...wondering if what is my next step and where everyone is heading to.

How many steps ahead? And where is it leading to?

To the left? Or to the right? Or should i walk another direction of my own?

If life is so definite...then why do we feel so confused and trying to make a choice out of the many choices in life?

The strength of Ji Mi's book. It's ability to draw out your feelings. =)

Whatever it is, I love this feeling.=)

2008-06-20T20:57:00.002+08:00

What Fong Sook Han Means

You are loving, compassionate, and ruled by your feelings.

You are able to be a foundation for other people... but you still know how to have fun.

Sometimes your emotions weigh you down, but you generally feel free from them.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.

You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.

At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.

You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.

Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.

You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.

You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.

You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip.

People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.

Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.

Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Hm...quite true for some part...some are totally off..Maybe I dont even know myself very well too...I still believe's one character speaks everything...and not just on the name itself. heehee. Just for fun and laughter. Jia you everyone!

'I so want to be happy'

2008-06-15T10:10:00.005+08:00

Hi everyone. =)

Here's a short paragraph from the The Sunday Times in the 'Reflect' forum.

Title: I So want to be happy

Author: Sumiko Tam

It goes like this...

".....When a dream comes true, you don't always get the happiness you thought would come with it;

.....Happiness is not something you can feel every moment of the day;

.....Happiness comes in small doses, so just be grateful for that;

.....It's pointless to wish for a Big Hapiness because it won't happen;

Perhaps happiness is overrated."

Well, I found this paragraph somewhat enlightening to me. I always wanted others to be happy and to see them smile. But being happy is such a innate thing, you cant possibly force anyone to feel happy in just a split second right? Well, seeing you guys happy still holds...for what i wish for is a long term happiness in you guys=)

Here's another..." I so yearn to be happy so I want to be happier. The irony is that this hunger and search for happiness is perhaps the reason I often find myself unhappy."

Indeed, the more you ask for something, the least you find yourself attaining that something. In the course, you started to be less satisfy with what you have and that disobey the 'the law of contentment'--( i've invent it:p) It's human instinct to search and ask for more, but something just can't be forced right? So moral behind the story is to let nature take it's course.=)

Last but not least..." What is clearer is that, like most things in life, happiness is subjected to the law of diminishing returns-to attain something you wish for does make you happy, but only up to a point. Beyond that, more and more of that thing adds less and less to you happiness."

Cool, economics principle can also be applied. So true...so true...Are you nodding your head as you read this post? Nay, am not trying to ask you guys to agree with whatever that is stated here, but more of less get the idea of happiness. It cant be force, it can only come naturally=)

2008-06-10T13:24:00.003+08:00

Hi everyone!

Speak No Evil, See No Evil, Hear No Evil

I'm getting very bored at home. I hardly open my mouth for the whole days. hai. Long story...
I think we should really take the hint from the picture to it's fullest. Sometimes, we ought to exercise a certain amount of these qualities. That's what distingishes you from a person who lives in the hectic and complicated world.

What matter most to you? What really determines your character? For what i know, what is sound and truthful will stay for the rest will just diminish. It's just a matter of time...and you having a little faith in what you believe in=)

2008-06-04T13:05:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
---Happy 18 RULUAN!!! =)
TAke care everyone. Enjoy the remainding holidays=) Shall update soon...=)

2008-05-24T11:38:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone.

Aw, I've lost all the files in my computer after reformatting. Was so upset to hear this yesterday when my brother brought his friend home to repair the computer. Now that the com can be used, it felt as if it is just an empty shell. So people out there, please send me any photos and files if you see me online.

Oh yea, Yesterday was Li Suan's Birthday! ha ha. HAPPY Birthday Girl! Stay healthy and strong yea?

I've just cleared some of the untouched links on the link side. Now that it is more tidy, hopefully it will help you to better access others blogs yea? heehee. If I've forgotten to link you, please remind me. I'm getting a bit of STM lately!

Take care people.

2008-05-18T11:33:00.008+08:00

Hi everyone.

*Red alert!* With the two disasters which occur in Myanmar and China, guess everyone very anxious how victims in these countries are doing. As I was flipping through the newspaper and seeing all the unsightly photographs which exactly depict the current states really send my heart trembling.
I'd remembered what my GP teacher had pointed out the other day. She said that we talk about dealth toll like something which is so deteched from us. I truely agree with that. And once, she asked if we are willing to go over to help out in countries which experience natural disasters and wars...It has dawned on me that I've never thought of such question as a priority in my life. What about you? Able to take up these noble courses are good, but what strikes me is that the cultures, environments, languages and political differnces are something which we have to consider rationally. You might beg me otherwise that a person who is willing to sacrifice himself for the benefits of others is able to overcome these barriers and accomplish such task which many of us avoid and even feel that it is beyond our ability to help or that our individual effort is too insignificant compared to the national effort. All these seems logical and practical 'excuses' right? Being in a country where we are so well protected from wars and natural disaster seriously did play a part to why we feel this way. Are we able to forgo the comfortable lives and wealth and embrace the many uncertainities ahead of us? I'm not trying to imply that we ought to experience them in order to understand and appreciate the current situation. Well, one way which we can start learning can be from our surrounding by doing voluntery jobs to serve our own needy citizens. Apart from rushing to donate money and food supplies to these country, at least for now we can reflect upon if we are doing enough everyday and not just during a critical period. If everyone has the common mission in life to make other's life better, isn't the world a better place to live in? But again, that's ideal. Reality is an imperfection in ideality.

"Heal The world"

2008-05-08T18:38:00.007+08:00

Hi everyone. I've came across this picture on the internet. I was so captivated by the little details in it. It somehow remind me how life is so unpredictable. How things changes every moment. Even the very fond memories have short lifespan just like the beautiful cloud line which would just shift under the strong wind, under the force of nature...I'm glad to be back on my feet. Even if the uncertainties stay on forever, it would just be a beautiful regrets in my life...I've accepted that things are not always clearly justified. Maybe this is what 'life' should be like.

Things have not been too well for me lately. Guess I have affected some of my close friends. Nevertheless, I appreciate you guys for being so tolerant. Even the happiest person would have a setback. I'm not spared either. But through such events, I've learnt to be stronger in my will and softer when people moves me. It has been a hard battled mental war within each of us. Whatever it is, I will move on. Thanks guys=)

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2008-04-28T17:52:00.003+08:00

Hi EVERYONE!

I've just heard from zhiwen that we have our very own co blog! SO COOL. Things in their hands are so much productive! Indeed. Great job ppl! Cant wait for the bbq this wednesday to come. It would probably the last time we have a gathering and have a good fun before all the serious work starts to pour in. Phew. It's gonna be a long long run people...

Well, things lately were not too bad, just that I'm still struggling with statistic language. Chemistry is taking a big toll on me...reagents n conditions seems to go rojak whenever I tried to recall them.-__- GROW MORE BRAIN CELLS! My physics teacher gave us a very inspiring speech today in class. I shall start doing what he has pointed out at the initial stage first, hopefully the momentum will slowly build. Sometimes, when you think that you have known a certain thing, but it turn out that you known none. Education is somehow sterotyping our brain to think in a certain way. But it works well so far, so there's little room for discussion. CASE CLOSE.>.<>

I starting to feel a sense of purpose in life. For such a long time, I've been so totally lost in the maze of confusion. Letting go at certain point in time can help one from falling too deeply into a messy situation. Stand out of it and find another route to travel...Let's keep going...let's keep smiling...let's keep working towards that very goal in everyone of us. LET'S DO IT!

Here are some of the random phots:

From the top left: Siew cheng, Tze Ting, HuiMin, Vivian, Me, Tricia=)

HA HA, do u find someone very extra in here. LOL. Ah Pek and thoes two lovely gals definitely leaves us with a lot of memories.

Here's a mini beatty gathering. Choir concert was great..just that it end too soon. =)

LAST BUT NOT LEAST....NYCO CAMP! =) But not everyone in the picture!

-I wish to as light, for the wind to carry me through the wonderful landscape in life-

2008-04-15T22:43:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone!

As requested by my didi-LiShi, I've finally get myself to start ranting about the recent stuffs. =)

It had been quite a fruitful and exciting experience on the day of ' Nanyang got talent'. Black long sleeve collar shirt, black pants and blue tie went very well as a whole...splendid! I could really see that our hard work had not gone into waste...which i felt very grateful and happy about. You could really sense that each and everyone is doing his/her best. Bearing in mind that this would be the last performance which the jc1 & 2 would be having together... The presence of the jc1 really did spice up the atmosphere which some of us have long to see. It's the kind of spirit and engery that probably have influence us as a whole-as a CO. Thoes laughters; co-operative and enthusiastic qualities really brought back a lot of nice and cosy memories. Yupp...what I can say is that: I have a bunch of goody-old juniors whom carry that much passion and drive.=) Carry on this spirit peeps!

Hm...School as usual is nothing but busy,tons of tutorials, sleepy lectures and energy draining PE. ARGHS. Sometimes it's really hard to keep motivation at it's top state. There will be sure in times when you serious feel so 'bottom-ness'. If you are feeling so, dont worry, YOU ARE NOT ALONE! If you ever want to scream things out, let me take part too..lol. Sounds so exaggerating and funny, but oh well, life is just depends on how you perceive things. And even more often, things are not always falling back on straight and systematic line. There are times which situations are so-out-of-control. Do what you can, for the rest are determined by the unknown forces in the nature. Erm...yup.

Thinking back, I've learnt quite a lot of stuffs from the peers around me. Not in terms of academically, but is the kind of intangible values which truely amazed me so much. I've yet to understand and internalised them all, but whoever has contribute to these 'intangible' factors are whom I really known them as---'the teachers of my life'. Credit them, for their presences are significant!

2008-03-29T22:51:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone.

I've just watch Sky of Love from the net.

Well, I'm truely very touched by this movie. A relationship which is so strong, pure, innocent and everlasting. I know this is only just a short term feeling for this but it's still worthwhile. It's just a romance movie, but maybe we shall explore the purity and qualities which it brings to us. Afterall, it's just a movie and probably out there in this world there is similar stories around. But I've not experience before, so dont know. LOL.

Try watching it if you have not. =)

Faint, next week gonna get back all the block test results. Be strong...

Take care people!

2008-03-10T22:38:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone.

Well, guess everyone right now is mugging for the block test( everyone=thoes who are jc2 in ny). Oh man, why am i making things complicated here? I've always make things complicated...and that makes me suffer much more than others. When comes to studying, the right way of studying should simply simplify the things that we learn into digestable bits and internalising them to be part of your own knowledge. I have too much work to be done in this area...

Sometimes, I feel like stopping down and resist all the change and movements around me. I wish for some peace and space for my own. Just a minute. Even it is just a single minute...I want to live a life for my own once. The energy which is consumed away from the services and all the intangible efforts one set to make lives of other better off is really too much. Much more than it can be compensate the other way round. Infact, it is never compensate-able. I am not trying to imply that whatever you do should reap the same and equal amount of effect, which is now in terms of 'gains'. These gains meant little to me. They breed, and eventually turn to greed. What I am saying is that, the only way to help one who is always giving more appreciation and encouragement. I hope, this is just the minimum which you and I can work towards to. Dont let tiredness wear off the person. So...who gains?-NONE!

I am trying to put much sense into the way people do things and why they do beacause of what reason? To me, these are the factors which help me to strive a balance of my own. And this definitely implies to everyone out there=) You lead your own life, not vice versa!

Take care people! JIA YOU!

2008-02-29T21:52:00.009+08:00

Hi everyone! TOday is a very special day n i hereby wish everyone HAPPY 29 Feburary! WHEE.

Tze Ting & ME. ( took in december 2007)

0711, it's a class n MORE. Ding DONG!

Here are some of the fresh photos from the oven! It's a very fun 29 feb with Tze Ting and huiping and thanks to all the SAF people for making our day so HIGH!

Woah, 2 golded masked man! So cool.The hose is quite heavy actually...

Whee, WE are the new generation of FIREFIGHTERS! yea!

Me: It would be so much better if we can climb up there!

Last but not least, shall reward you guys with a super nice photo!( too bad i'm not able to hold the gun...)

Well, after this episode, joining the arm force isn't a very bad choice either. The thought of able to hold a real gun and wearing the uniforms thrills me...But i know there's much to just these, it is also the passion and responsibility to protect our people, our home. Maybe i will consider on tt...=)

2008-02-26T21:14:00.006+08:00

Hi Everyone. Time to update this blog! Heehee. This time round i wont be doing much of the talking but rather, i shall let the pictures to say all the unspoken words.=) yupps.

Oh No!

Poor photographic skills, haha...well, you can see quite a bit of how Lt4 looks like=)

I really missed my seniors, Mr Tan and all the fond memories=)

9-somes!( + jasmine the camera woman) reunion dinner for all of us. Thanks to heng & her mom being so generous. WE finally make it together after soooo long. Hope the next time we need not wait so long to meet up.

There's a lot of people who are not in these pictures are very important to mee too...You play an important role in my heart. Each and everyone of you!

More pictures coming up?!? Stayy tune=)

-there's thousands and million things i want to say, but only you can understand me in just a word.-

2008-01-30T22:48:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone!

Today it's my birthday. I dont actually feel happy or excited when i left home today. Due to some thing which i find myself very stubbornly, refused to admit and i have to say, i've committed more unhappy stuffs in the morning. Like what li suan had said, 18 years old meant that i wont be relying too much on my parents which means i will be more well-behaved and fulfil my duty as a daughter. But somehow, things just go so wrong and i dont have the courage to change it to better. I hate it!

Well, in school, I was very much impressed and amazed how many people actually remember or just remember on the spot that it is my birthday! Well, nevertheless, it is the sincerity that counts.=) THANKS to those who actually go all the way out to make my day.

I was very much moved by the tremendous response from CO. I actually saw some members who are not very close to me singing the birthday song so readily. Despite all the werid tones and chaos, but it sounds so overwhelming. I admit that i am truely touched. Touched by my dear classmates, my dear friends, my dear co mates. Afterall, spending my birthday in school is not a bad thing uh?

I cant help to feel so touched when i recalled all the scenes of greetings and well-wishes. You guys make me feel that i am not lonely. Probably i'm scared to face loneliness. You might say it is my weakness...n i truely believe so. Afterall, who dont need people to care for?

I must say, this year's birthday is my most fortunate birthday. And you play a part to make it happen...-Thank You-

2008-01-22T21:46:00.000+08:00

2008-01-07T17:51:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone. This is really a forgotten site. Doubt anyone will visit this blog. Termination.

Well, this coming wednesday is the cca bazaar. Hope everything turns up to be fine. Course, as what i've know for now, the situation seems quite messy and disorganise. JIA YOU CO frens!

Ms Ding requested for an extra practice tomorrow. It gonna be a long and tiring day till 7.30pm. Aw. Let's hope i can last till that time and members will turn up for the practice.

I've a new classmate. Her name is Siew Cheng. *clapclp*. So that's make up one more person in our clique. Tze Ting is back from her OGL orientation. Seems like she has gain quite a bit of fame and respect from the jc1s. HA HA, She's even more crazy and high that before. To all ogls: Please drink more water and regain your beautiful voices. Take care.

-stand strong, for you can make things happen.-

2007-12-31T22:23:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone. Whoo...2 more hours to a brand new year, 2008!...Are you as excited as me? heehee

This year, 2007, has been a long, tedious, and a mixture of sweet, sour, bitter, spicy with a little of blandness( lost). I need to face with new challenges as a jc student. I find that my circle of friends actually grew smaller and smaller, when one goes further up in this journey of 'life'. Adaptation after adaptation, tears after tears, but I am grateful that all these events make up the me realised much more of what makes up this world. It is really reality that we sooner or later have to face. I dont know if i have become a better person that the previous year, but i feel the changes occuring within me...so strongly.. But am not able to resist such change. I always wanted to be a better person..if ever you find that I'm out of the track, pls, pull me back in 2008. Thanks a lot!

Yes, let this brand new year begin right away. Are you ready? Let's start the engine n JIA YOU. Wishing everyone good health and high spirit. A ZA!
- Never feel lost, for you are the guiding star in your life. Manage it well, set your foot right into the year of 2008!

2007-12-24T10:02:00.000+08:00

HI everyone! First and foremost, MERRY christmas EVE!=)

I shall update some stuff from past few days?week? heehee. The day before was 'Dong zhi jie' and my mother cooked a pot of tang yuan! YUMMIE. It was the traditional kind n i love them to bits. Guess what? I think i have eaten about half a kg of flour the last 2 days. HA HA. People usually say that when you have eaten tang yuan on that day, you will sort of be grown up 1 year older. n...now that i have eaten so many tang yuan..shouldn't i be 18 now? Oh well, it's a matter of time. geee. People, please dont remind me of that. Just remember that i'm as young as you are=) LOL

Have been trying to rush through my holiday homework. Whenever i see the pile of work on my desk, i feel like running away from it. The best of all is that whenever i feel like going into this ecapism state, i would go to sleep. A deep sleep. I dont like this feeling. ew!

I'm trying to gather the new year clothes right at the current state. Dont even know if i will have time when school reopen wor. I really look forward to next's year Chinese New year. It has some significance to me.=) How about you? yupp. Time flies, 2007 is gonna be over soon. This year have been quite a different experience for me, for I get the taste of meeting changes and chages, which is a part and parcel of life? isn't it? I just want to lead a peaceful and quiet life. Ordinary is a gift, simplicity is pleasure. Like i always said to you, SMILE MORE! more and more and MORE!

2007-12-11T22:45:00.000+08:00

其實很愛你 - 張韶涵
曲︰黃漢青／阿沁
詞︰黃漢青／桃子
編︰林於賢

離開　不會太悲傷

有些　心情該釋放

直到　眼淚它自己落下

才發現騙不了自己其實很愛你

＊現在　學著去遺忘

躲開　有你的地方

回憶　被誰放在書架上

把它從最高的地方　落下

＃感動越是深刻　寂寞就越傷人　哦

每個人的心裡都會有一段傷痕

像白紙的天真　反覆被你傷得好深

相愛不需要理由　離開也沒有理由　挽留

重唱　＊,＃,＃

Sometimes, feelings are hard to be expressed in words, but i guess this song can help to speak the unspoken=)

2007-11-21T09:56:00.000+08:00

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Some are very true, some are not true, some are just randomness..yupyup

2007-11-18T10:41:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone.

From yesterday to today, some things are bothering me non-stop. Not that i detest the true reason behind the commotion occurred yesterday, but really on what has changed and what has to be done, to my way, co, as well as my fellow maincom peeps. Sometimes, it just hurt to know that things are slipping off our hands, right under our eyes... It really reveals what kind of personality as well as leadership that we have.

Things have really changed. Or am I not putting the right amount of effort into it. It was used to be a harmonious committee which i got back then. Probably, in terms of quality, we are really no match to some schools. Indeed. It was alright, not that there were no problems at all. Yes, there were problems and we could somehow deal with it with 1 heart, 1 mind. From the girl who never even talked much in secondary 1 n 2, to the one having to take up much responsibility in Secondary 3 n 4 wasnt a very smooth change and I could still say...the change back then still contain as much flaws. But it was a major change which i was glad to be exposed to. It was hard, exhausting, mind-bogging and worrisome task. It was just too different, the piority was : from I , me and Myself to You, him/her, everyone. Whenever there was a problem, i always check against myself for any underlying problems in me before seeking for exteral problems. Other than some words from the seniors, few sessions of leadership camp...Poof..I was on my way to become frontline person. We all search for the light out of the tunnel when something which was so foregin to me into something which i have to live and breathe in. Lots of setbacks but still the memories were the one that I really cherished...

Right now, things are different now. We exist as a whole new combination, whole new co. I know it is hard to let everyone's desire and thinking fall back into a straight line. Even though it is a curvy line, still we tried hard to make everyone's thinking exist. I'm fond of my committee...real rah rah, hyper and a bunch of goody people. I know things are really different in jc...my only hope would be have a committed and resilience committee to face all odd in time to come. It is still possible and feasible. yes. I really have no harsh feeling for anyone in the committe, I do appreciate all the different personalities which you guys have. Let's bury the hatch, and give everyone more changes to change, to be a better person...

2007-11-12T13:57:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone.

Woah, heehee, i finally managed to post this entry before anyone out there gets too impatient. ha ha. jk.=)

Well, life after promos was bland n tastless. Why? I sudden feel that i have lost the aim in finding meaningful things to boost up the life of a jc student. Of course, this exclude from studying. I've got the urge to let loose yet refrain from long-term damage which only surface once i got myself in committing into an event or what so ever. Don't get what I meant here? It's alright, it's just bit and pieces of my thoughts. I want to do something meaningful, to both others and myself. Living off the world of just i, me and myself...I hope to discover something new, wonderful and purposeful. What should it be? Am I not satisfy with the current state? But I know, deep down in me, I am still trying to understand and appreciate what life is. And how should we live our lives?

Ah, I hope we can do a good job in getting the co-t printed n as well as the farewell bbq for our seniors. Gee...JIA YOU! Have been a little uncertain, aimless and speechless about what's going on right now. I hope things would be clearer...

Oh yes, holiday to me is yet another feast-y season! yuppie! ha ha...let's bear in mind to stay in shape. I finally looking forward to CNY. Weird me....it is still 2 months away... It symbolised something, a destination n as well as a new term goal ahead. I look forward to that..really.

Stay cool everyone. Take care n Enjoy the holidays ahead!

2007-10-28T08:53:00.001+08:00

Hi everyone!

Let's see, what can i talk about? LOL. Promos was already over. Results were released. 2 times of OP rehersals were already in the past. What's ahead are the A level mother tongue(TOMORROW!) and OP (WEDNESDAY!)examinations.
hm....weird heading..oh well, i cant wait for holidays to come. Yet, holidays="mugging". Oh yes, i really feel that i should sleep less from now on...getting too much sleep is also a pain, you know?

Right now, I am trying to do last minute corrections and editing to my I&R. It's amazing to know that we have already gone so far for PW this year. Still remembering us littering our complains like nobody's business whenever we come to do PW. But HEY! Next year batch is not going to take PW anymore. Seems like good news for them and bad news for us. Still...still...i cant deny the fact that we actually learnt quite a few pointers during the course of PW-ing. Right guys? (echoo...)

I WANT TO GO SWIMMING. It's getting on my nerve whenever i feel that i am not exercising enough ...ha ha...I sound like a desperate and unwanted kid here. lol

I wonder if friends should give the same kind of treatment to one another. Or should one rank each friend according to most importance to the least. I guess, in everyone's heart, different friends meant differently to him/her as compared to others. I still feel there is a need to remain in fair contact with one another and maintaining "invisible" distances. LOL. Let's ponder about this..

2007-10-15T16:22:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone

Promotional Results was released last friday. Same day as NY open house. I still remembered the day before, i was still feeling very unsettled and distress about the outcome of the results. As much as i know, results cant determine everything in the world. But somehow, you cant deny that it is one of the yardsticks to determine every stages during this long and tough journey. 23rd will be our final destiny? Or the beginning?

I'm aware that everyone has a different degree of satisfaction. When comes to examination, all these demands have to be set to an appropriate level as anything could have happened during the course of examination period. Same thing applies to the kind of self-expectatory results which you have set for yourself. I'm not saying it is anyone's mistake, but if we have realised what we have done wrong during the process and ready to face up to the consequences, i would say setting a goal which is too far to be grasp would not appear. When such things happened, one couldnt help to feel disappointed and depressed. While on the other hand, when i scaned through the hall, i see a different side of the story. For thoes who have mentally prepared for the worst, what they faced were more realistic and 'contentment' seems not to appear in their own "dictionary". I definitely understand what's going on... All the papers were given back in the hall, but due to the different mentality that we have possessed, the environment could then be a heaven or hell. It all begins with you...

NYopen house was not a very fantastic one...but somehow, we manage to pull through. I know everyone does not have the mood for it... Hopefully it would be better when cca orientation comes.

For now, it's time to concentrate on PW and H1 chinese examinations. I'm looking forward towards the end of tunnel for the year which is the holidays! Let's work hard before enjoying the holidays ba=)

2007-10-04T17:18:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone.

Promos are over. I finally can concentrated on hunting for FOOD heehee...for all the sweat, pain and worrisome exam was already in the past. But, the future lies in the hands of the results. 12 october. Well, I've done my best for what i can say...but sometimes, i just feel guilty of not having done enough lor. I hope i can reach the stage of assessment and reflection. At the same time, no point looking back, what matters most is to grab on to the future confidently.

I have saved myself from much of the pain and trouble during the exam, but once the exam is over, what is unsolved remained as a knot in my heart. Something which always triggers me to be down. I did take on the opportunity once to clear my doubts and unhappiness, but somehow, by fate or ( human error), things dont work out it should be..and i am still lost within this maze. A maze between two person? A maze full of misunderstanding...
Maybe, everything lies on me for the other party is moving on. Shoudl i be a stayer or leaver? Should i just pretend nothing have happened? Or i am thinking too much. Sometime, it is not the words from one's mouth that kills...is the wild thoughts that kills all the trust and understanding.
But i have thought through it...everyone has the right to lead the kind of life that they want to be. I cant force people to live life in a certain way. It is out of my control. If there is ever a chance to clear this doubt again, i hope i could attain some peace and a smile which i longed to see from both faces. When will the cloud ever clear from the sky?

I couldnt help but to think that life is full of twist and turn. People move in and move out of your life, but the comfort lies when the people who have come across evetually make an impression in your heart. They are the ones who make me stronger each day. I hope everyone can lead on a happy life. As long as you are happy...and every setbacks unearth a true value to be pick up. yes

2007-09-08T23:35:00.000+08:00

Yeah, I know it hurts
Yeah, I know you're scared
Walkin' down
The road that leads
To Who-Knows-Where

Dont'cha hang your head
Dont'cha give up yet
When courage starts
To disappear
I will be right here

When your world
Breaks down
And the voices tell you, "Turn around"
When your dreams
Give out
I will carry you
Carry you
When the stars
Go blind
And the darkness starts to
Flood your eyes
When you're fallin'
Behind
I will carry you

Everybody cries
Everybody bleeds
No one ever
Said that life's
An easy thing
That's the beauty of it
When you lose your way
Close your eyes 'N' go to sleep
Wake up to
Another day

I only manage to post part of the song:I will Carry you, By: Clay Aiken
I find it meaningful though..what about you? May everyone be empowered with the strength to overcome any obstacles at any moment in time. cheers=)

2007-09-05T22:57:00.000+08:00

Hi EVERYONE! ha ha...i've never update this blog for SO SO SO many days. Miss the days when i really blog all my sweet, sour, bitter and spicy moments like nobody's business. Ah! My business for now is to revise for the BIG promo. Dont ask me how i feel now..course i feel numb and there's mixture of feelings going occuring within me every now and then....beat me...i cant even actually point out what it is. Can anyone out there able to understand my situation? Oh well...seems a bit too desperate. Thanks anyway, if you have already read up to here. Afterall, you still remember to visit my blog even though i have abandon it quite sometime. =)

I was told by my tutor that i have to redo my EoM even after 2 draft. She said my article was not relevant. Even after much trouble, i still cant get my hand on at LEAST one useful article. My friend was better than me as she had found one. Okie, I am suppose to redo my EoM asap for my tutor to check again, but i simply counldn't find motivation for it. Instead of doing it..am blogging now. If i can write so much in a blog, why cant i do something to my EoM. It's all got to do with my limited English. JIA YOU AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Not until the very last minute, YOU CANT GIVE UP!

Promo is around the corner. I have do clear my revision asap. It has been a very mind bogging period for me. There's still a lot of concepts i need to grapse.

Oh yes, i did have a nice time going back to Beatty to find my teachers. I have not forgotten the days when sitting in the classroom and listening to their voice when they teaches. I missed my friends and everything in Beatty. Though it is small and insignificant compared to the outside world, it has been once a great and warm home for me. I missed thoes days. Thoes people. That's you!

I feel so much better after blogging. Yea. Maybe i should do it more often now on...Have a good night rest everyone. Take care. =)

2007-08-12T01:19:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone. heehee..i have the sudden urge to blog right now. You can say it is a late night-dawn special if you can read it now at 1.20 in the morning! WAH! HA HA...Am so amazed that i can stayed up so late over past midnight! heehee. Of course it's never good for health...Urge..when can i do something beneficial to the people around me and myself? well well well..

I have assigned today to be my EoM day! You could roughly guess what i have been doing the whole day..simply just EoM, EoM and more EoM. I had been staring into the material like thousand times just to see some light here and there. Can anyone guide me in writing one? So much of last minute work for me and it would be due on MONDAY! All thanks to EoM...i still have tons of homework which i have to attend to..."they" are all waving and screaming at me. HA! I think i'm a little screw loose right now...maybe anytime which past midnight is my "highest" time? geee....sound so werid and not logical to me. MY BIOLOGICAL CLOCK IS SPOILT! Let's bring it to clock house to repair tomorr...*WAVE* TAke care EVERYONE!

oh yes! our dear huiping is already discharged from hospital! So happy for her..for she is one step closer to eat her favourite mee pork( no oil?)..heehee. *wink* Take care and JIA YOU O. By the way...i will be watching over you! Beware of what you eat! heehee

HAppy 42nd NATIONAL DAY!

2007-08-09T22:08:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone! HAPPY 42nd NATIONAL DAY TO every Singaporean!!!! WHOO~

Well, i stayed home to watch the national day parade through the broadcast tevision promgramme on channel 8. Not too bad i think. But somehow, it would be much better if i could be there to scream and jump with everyone. heehee. Aiya...dont know why, at the same time, i have many thigns which i must complete. oh well....

Through the tellybroad cast system, i saw the different face of everyone, each of them so happily celebrating the sucess of Singapore. I could even feel the warm and excitment through the television screen. I felt the same too...I LOVE S'PORE! It is a safe and harmonious place to live in. It is where my love ones belong in. It is where i meet all my friends. It is where i feel proud to be. As much as i would like to visit other countries, this will always be my home.=) HOME SWEET HOME! Many thoughts are running through me as i watched the show. Somehow, the journey to sucess have been tough and bitter...guess it is the same to everyone at a certain point in life. We must struggle through and at the same time not losing faith in oneself. You can only feel for it strongly when you have already gone through the tough journey yourself. I guess same goes to the older generation of singaporean who see Singapore prosperous through the years. 3 cheers to SINGAPORE!

My brother got me a national day bag from the ndp parade! Wheee...heehee.

Get well soon huiping! JIA YOU GIRL. We will all be there for u*wink*

2007-07-23T17:36:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone.

Well, i wanted to go swimming during saturaday and sunday..but in the end i didnt go anywhere except going to popular to buy some stationery. faint. Life for me is revolving about school, homework and never-ending pw-ing. How exciting. Gee...i sound so extreme and boring man. tsktsk. JIA YOU AHHHHHHhhhhhhh*scream*

Today is quite a relaxing day as compared to other days. Am not saying that we are so relax until to the extend of slacking, but rather, there is only 2 tutorial lessons and the rest are lectures. Yup. WAhhhh...physics RAWKS man. No monday blues and in turn, i get to know more about the concept of circular motion. Not a trememdous amount of achievement as compare to need to clear the previous chapter's concept..but am happy enough to know that the formulas and diagrams make sense to me! WAHHHH...even though i dont get really fantastic result for mid year( disappointing but i deserve it)...somehow, the passion for physics still burns that feverntly every now and then. Thanks to Mr Amos. He is the first person who inspired me to know more about this subject irregardless of scoring well. Still, the ultimate aim is to do well enough to grant me an entry to university. Taking about university...i still dont know which course i want to take if i am given a chance to go in. Too early to think about it? I dont think so, while working hard in jc...i should spend some thoughts over which path i would be heading at the junction of the road. Food for thought. Okie, so much of side-tracking, one thing i would say is that i wont give up for physics not matter how tough and tedious it would be. NO WAY MAN. same goes to other subjects. I will make sure i digest everything that seems so alien and threatening to me. JIA YOU AH *faint* same to you guys.*wink* CHIONG with eyes open!

hm...today my friend pointed out to me that i have quite a number of friends in school. She sees me waving every now and then to thoes who walked past me. Am not trying to say that i am a very popular girl in school, but just so ordinary. I like to acknowledge thoes around with a smile or simply an enthusiastic wave. It helps to brighten one's tiring day. We might not be exchanging some heart-felt words or what, but this small gestures are something that some of us dont commit to when things around us are in a mess. What i am trying to say here is that, you might not be someone's best pal, but it is meaningful to acknowledge the presence of someone. oh well, i dont have best of best friends. Am i at a lost as thoes who have soul friends to accompany them through thick and thin? Argh...so much of human greed. I should be contented with the state i am in and not picking on what others have and i dont have. Probably i can work on that and be a better person. YEa. Live life to the fullest. Fill it up with love, knowledge and passion.

As i was sitting bus 73 home, something came across my mind so abruptly. I realised that, many of us are playing different roles all the time. You can be playing up to 3-4 roles in life. These roles expect you to perform professionally without fail. If you are a student, you should be be dutifully playing your role in studying and involving in any school activities. What makes us different from our usual self at home is that, we are wearing an uniform and carrying papers of tutorials n lecture notes. We seem to have transformed completely and we are put under test everyday. Thoes stresses and pouring tests or exam are the tasks that we have to conqure if you want to play your role well. I detest this role yet am willing to try out the challenges... How irony ah! Argh...sometimes, i just cant help but to sigh when i am alone. But on the other hand, someone or something is telling me not to give up to any obstacles. They are not difficult to handle..it is all up to how to look and thing of it. true. Mental-power. Now, i really think i need recharge myself to some near-by power socket. I am so DRAINED. TATA...TAKE care peeps.

LTC

2007-07-17T21:42:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone! ATTENT--TION! ha ha...just being very random here. :p

I'm trying my best to keep myself awake at this very moment. Argh..pw is driving me crazy? Can't i go online without even open on any files regarding pw? I just feel sooo tired! If you have the same feeling as me...i have this very brilliant idea that we can do to save ourselves from all these troubles. Let's a sign a petition on anti-pwing? Oh wells...okie, if this would work, it would have already worked LONG ago man! okie, i am just trying to find some lame excuses to get away from the current situation. P.s Do ignore this part, i dont wish to cause any negative feelings upon you guys regarding pw. yupp. Let's jia you all the way to the end of year. May the strength be with everyone of us!

The past few weeks are the most memorable event since the beginning of the year. Quite a number of things have happened...LTC camp was really another turning point in my life man. Before i went for Ltc...i was kind of lost and unable to open myself up to anyone. Adapting was another problem. I was trying very hard to find back the familiar feeling of the olden days back in secondary school...but somehow, i was quite down course i wasnt able to maintain the "stamina" as before. Everything changes, i was too slow to grab everything. Urge, seriously, the feeling was really that bad. But somehow, in me, there is this angel who tells me to keep going and never say "die". Never surrender to anything until the last minute.or even to the last second. woah. As the saying goes, Action is more powerful than words. Doing the things that you determined to might not be the same as you wanting it to be. Let's all face the truest reality peeps. Okie, back to LTC. I have 3 camp facils : dearest Angie, Nick and HuiSin. Woah, they are really the kind of role models who i want to be and follow. Thank goodness i have them in my ltc group: Sir Burnor( Dorcas, Yee Ling, Rachel, Huimin, Amelia, Melissa, Li Leng, Brandon, Jason, Arrun, Bryan, Eugene and Guo Hao) whooo...cool bunch of people. So enthusiastic and fun-loving. I did learn a lot from you guys too. Must to an extend, you guys really showed me the meaning of sincere friendship. Until now, i think our bonds are still that tight and sticky. WAY to go people! LTC camp was not like the usual camps which i had during primary school or secondary school days. It made me realised the true meaning of maintaining discipline and order and also the most interactive way in which i can absorb more about how to lead others and identifying my strength and weakness. These were all the things that i used to crave for before going to LTC camp. Right now, somehow, i have found the answers to my doubts. The camp would not be a successful one if not for the friendship and encouragement throughout the camp which includes high elements, sea expedition( i've lost my spectacles due to capsize in the sea...shant not eleborate further), land expedition and maybe some punishments here and there. But i truely feels that it is the people in the camp that makes my day the most. If you ask me if i am a practical person or a sentimental person, i would be the later. Therefore, i really wish the ties that we have formed during the ltc wont be forgotten or lost. I can really sense the changes in me as well as the people around me within the short period of 4 days. Indeed short and sweet and furthermore, EXPERIENCIA MAN!

okie, have already side-tracked from pw-ing for very long...shall go back and start doing serious stuff. Hope you guys wont be bored by my entry. oh wells....have a good night rest and jia you all the way. -every dark cloud has a silver lining...things will get better! BE POSITIVE!=)

2007-07-03T20:46:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone. I know it has been quite a while since i last blogged. The past few days n weeks left me into deep thoughts...but somehow, i felt a lost of words as to 'pen' it down here. As i am typing at this particular moment, i feel an urge to pour out everything. Be it good or bad. Maybe.

Last week, we had our mid year exam. Never i know i would be so nervous, probably is beacuase there is a change in environment from secondary school to jc. But whatever it is, i will try to learn to adapt. Yea...adapt and not to change the environment to suit one. The papers were quite tough...each paper was enough to squeeze out 75% of the brain juice. urge. Well..now that it is over and done with. The next stage will be receiving back the papers tomorrow. SO fast! Whatever it is, never cried over spilled milk and move on. It's easy to say it out, the difficult part will be the doing. Jia you everyone. n All the best.

LTC camp is around the corner. It would take place from friday to monday evening. WOah...i heard it wont be an easy training..however, i would like to discover my limits and strength. What feels familiar to me is not longer seems to be so, so i would like to start anew and pull through whatever challenges. I hope i dont get sunburnt! As for now, i was a little burnt already...HELP! heehee

Yo, tomorrow will the the dsa day for 9 secondary school student. Hope everything works well on them n good luck! Jia you NYCO!

Here is a little note to huixin: HAppy Belated Birthday! Sweet 17! May you find your 17 ever sweeter. Smile!

Also, happy birthday to Brian who is in my LTC group. =)

Who will understand how am i feeling now? Where did i did wrong?

2007-06-15T23:59:00.000+08:00

百货公司里售卖一只非常特别的玩具熊，玩具熊因为色彩缤纷，因此就叫七彩熊。七彩熊穿着黄色的吊带裤，蓝色的上衣，有红色的袖子，青色的脚底，黑色的眼珠，还有白柔柔的毛。虽然它身上没有凑足七种颜色，可是七彩熊就爱它的名字。　　

到了夜深人静的时候，七彩熊都会感到很苦恼。因为，几乎每个晚上，七彩熊都会被其它在晚上起来玩耍的玩具取笑，嘲讽。其它玩具常常笑七彩熊样子古怪，很老土，很难卖出去，因为现在已经不流行五彩缤纷的玩具熊了。七彩熊虽然有时感到很生气，很伤心，可是它从来没说什么。有时候，当它无法忍受一切的时候，它都会对着窗外夜空里的星星哭泣，因为只有星星不会笑它，还会带给它希望和温暖。　　

七彩熊曾经厌倦自己的七彩。它渴望像其他普通小熊，不是全白，就是全褐色，这样的话，它就很容易被卖出去，有个温暖的家。虽然七彩熊生命中有许多不愉快的事，可是它从来没有放弃过自己。七彩熊觉得，一个没有期待的人生是没有意义的。七彩熊觉得，无论怎样，它可以失望，可是绝对不能失去希望，一定要勇敢的面对生活。所以七彩熊每一次都会带着最灿烂的笑容面对百货公司的顾客。　　

在百货公司的日子里，七彩熊目睹了形形色色的人生百态：有些人自私自利，有些慷慨解囊，有些虚情假意，有些却付出真心。它想，如果每个人都肯体恤他人，将心比心，那么，世界就会变得更美好。　　

有一天，一位先生把七彩熊给买了，七彩熊感到雀跃万分。先生回家后，把七彩熊送给了一个小女孩，还对她说：“小敏，这只小熊是送给妳的，希望妳以后的人生会像这只熊一样多姿多彩。希望妳记得，没有谁在这个世上是多余的，妳、小熊、以及每个人都是独一无二的，都会过着不同的人生。”小女孩回答：“爸爸，我一定会珍惜这只小熊的！”　　

七彩熊明白了。　　

它再也不为自己的色彩感到自卑，或是不断羡慕其它玩具熊了，它不愿意忽略了自己拥有的独特价值。七彩熊笑得更灿烂了，因为它已找到自己的第七个色彩。

Http://youth.zaobao.com/friday/pages/1506hd2.html

Came across this essay from the above webbie. I like it cause it speaks a lot about human behaviour and thinking- in this case is through a bear ( Ni ren hua) It's difficult to appreciate yourself when there is a lot of distractions from the surrounding. Sometimes, you feel like being one of the many others, behaving or having what they have. But have you forgotten to take notice about yourself? Your own true identity that no one can be replace. One and only you.

Also, silent itself is like a teacher, teaching you how to compose yourself in any situation. It teaches you how to observe others silently and reflect within yourself. It teaches you how to enjoy silence moment in a extraordinary way... Maybe, being in silent is not bad afterall. You need not suffer silently, ironically, make friend with it. yup.

Take care=)

Places i would like to go

2007-06-13T21:41:00.000+08:00

Here are some of the places which i am very interested to visit. Infact, they will be my destinations once i am old enough to travel on my own. I love the paris tower at night. I wish i could be there now...

Korea! YEa. Not for the shopping but rather the scenery there. I wonder how it feels like looking down from mountain. heehee.

Disney land! I have never been there before. What a pity. deprived childhood? But i still wish to be there to see some of my favourite cartoon characters. Winnie the Pooh N frens?

Snow! Often, i always see such scene in movies or korea drama. How i wish i could really see at least once in my life time. YUPPIE!

Yup. These are the few places which i could think of right now... Whether i am able to cover all this places...it still remains as an unknown. I would have to consider quite a no. of factors in order to travel to my dream places. I Hope it wont be just a dream. but reality. *wink* JIA YOU JIA YOU JIA YOU! heehee

2007-06-13T13:48:00.001+08:00

Hi everyone. Seems like i have not been attending to my blog for so long. A forgotten site...indeed. I used to blog so often, so often that everyday there would be at least a post. That was when i am in secondary school. Have things changed?

Whenever i visit my own blog, it always look so lifeless and boring. What has happened? Lately have been reading other people's blog. I read about their life, pain, happy and even philosophical stuffs .When comes to looking at my life, what is there to memtion about? Nah, dont worry, am not feeling depressed or what, just purely some reflections. yup.

Thoes were the days...when i am truely happy. Now that i think back, it somehow tells me to carry on this spirit and optimistic view in life. Yea, indeed. What is there to bother and be unhappy about. HA HA...now that i am asking this question, it sounds like a big joke i made to myself. It's easy to decieve one self and hard to face reality. yup
Being the 3 rd party or the centre person in any situation can be good and bad. Most of the time, it is up to one to pull back from falling deep into that particular situation and refrain from getting hurt. If the situation would get better, i guess i wont have regrets after all. Like what i have said...i find joy in making others day a brighter and happier one. It might sound silly, but that is the truest intension that can easily be fulfilled or destroyed. yea.

I have watched ' My girl'. Fortunately, like any other fairy tale, it has a a twist and as well as a happy ending. But what i take more notice is the hurt and pain that was caused to others other than the main leading actor and actress. Well, that's the irony of it. Werid me, maybe i empathise with them more ba. yupp.

Still another week to go before school reopen and that when all the exam starts to 'pour' in. HA HA. I look forward to a fulfilling week. Gee...and of course, to find back my old self. The one that i am comfortable with.

wahhhh...if you are reading up to here, i think there would be a lot of question marks in your mind. It's okie. Good effort though...heehee. Take care people. Enjoy your holidays *wink*

There she goes aagain...

2007-05-26T11:15:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone! I know some of you have been very impatient with my slowness and the outdated post! SORRY! forgiven? heehee

Well, today there is GP essay exam. That would be counted in mid year exam wor! Just an essay itself will determine my grades...i feel so threatened by the thought of it. Moreover, i did very badly for the common test for gp. =( Pathetic ah! No way man..this is not going to continue wor! Yupp..i will work hard for it for sure...

Hm...well, what's next?

yup. The new exco was out on friday! It' s a day that i dragged most...I really missed my seniors a lot. The root has already sinked so deep into the soil...i just felt so rooted towards them lah. They have contributed selflessly for the sake of co. Sometimes, it must not only be the things they did, rather is also the things that they said. It's as if the compass to show the direction was blurred and i feel quite loss. I will definitely pick myself up for sure. for the sake of everyone. Time flies, still remember the time when i took over the post so unpredictably...i was so shocked to the core wor. I used to think that i would be the last one to be called to lead, but the opportunity that i was given truely proved myself wrong. Well, i do appreciate and grateful for such a rare opportunity to strike on me...as i slowly pull myself always from the ignorant self. Now that i think of it...it makes me wonder if i have the courage to move on. I am honoured enough to be given another chance now, to work things out in a different and challenging environment. I do demand more from myself, to complete the task and solve the problem efficiently. ( no reason to slack!) Moreover, i hope i continue to enjoy this passion to lead with my fellow members n exco. Thanks for placing the trust...it really make me want to even work harder for anything. yupp. To all my ex-exco & seniors: Thanks for everything. Even to the tiny-est thing u guys have done. JIA YOU O!

There is something which veron had shown me. It did really made a deep impression... Here it goes:
Effective leader is one who makes decisions firmly. As weavering can lose time,lead to confusion and even to a loss of confidence.
Ah! how true! It truely speaks what i have to do lor. Should i say am enlightened? Not the best yet...but will work towards this goal.

YesYes. I've met a big bro who is called lao lao lao da (LJ)! ha ha. yupp. thanks for the support and encouragement. It's nice to have known you. Xiao xiao xiao mei very grateful wor! Must keep in touch wor!

Last but not least...I hope to work well with my exco. You guys are great peeps, let's all work towards in doing great things and achieve great outcomes. JIA YOU.NYCO

2007-05-20T21:19:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone. I cant believe i actually survived this week's tests, lessons and a lot of other events. Quite proud of myself though...it makes me believe that difficulties and problems wont last forever. All it takes is what you really think in the mind, and there you go, you can actually make it to the end. Very philosophical, but practical yea?

Yes yes, i've passed my NAFA test. So worried about not able to jump far enough wor...Maybe i should thanks to my white school shoes. Though they were so torn and tattered, they really brought me all the way out beyond the passing distance. Whoopie. I had tried numerous time before Nafa test, but just could not overcome the feeling of being too " heavy"? But i did it! *doi doi doi* THANKS to Jasmine who lent her running shoes to me so that i can sucessfully pass my shutter run. heehee.

Today went to support lisuan as she was playing in SP.CO. with Germaine and Yi Ling. This was the very first time i actually went out that far from my house since the beginning of jc. wahhh..so deprived right? Oh well... Their performance was good. It's nice to see her again after so long...hope she is doing well. YUP. And all my secondary school classmates who went to poly...i wonder how are they doing right now.. Miss them a lot! Hopefully there will be a class outing during the june holidays...*pray* There's a lot for us to catch up...hopefully we dont miss out anyone in this "mazey" journey.

Oh yes, Wishing Li Suan an advance B'dae! Yupp. Happy Birthday. You are as OLD as i am soon! heehee. WELCOME! *wink*

Sometimes, all i wanted to achieve is to be happy. Am i really happy now? Or am i forcing myself to be happy? What is the dragging factor? where went wrong? Am i asking too much? Why am i feeling this way? I could easily differentiate if i am truely happy or not. Course i know too much of myself..and not to decive myself any longer. I used to be seeking for something...and i found it: to make others happy. Yes, i found the happiness from there on. Now, mission possible: I need to find the happiess...not to depend too much on anyone to provide. What if one day the person just dont seems to appear anymore? I wish to face the reality than living in my own world.

The greatest gift in the world is to forgive. Forgive anyone who might have cause hurt to you, physically or mentally. Let it not be an obstacles and cause you further mistakes and injuries. Probably, they are the ones who show you the path to be a better person. yupp. =)

This is a super longwinded post. argh...should save some of the words for tomorrow's Econ's test! HA HA >.< IRONY!

2007-05-10T22:22:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone. Hm..blogger is now experiencing some error. There is no way to change the colour to my font! Argh..well, it's okie with you guys right? Heehee...Today my post will have colourful and meaningful content. That will do! =)

YEAH MAN! NANYANG CO GOT GOLD! Whee~~ It was sort of a surprise outcome to all of us. When it was announced that we got gold.. we total go crazy and screamed non-stop. And i meant that we REALLY CAN SCREAM WOR!(Opps, guess we somehow irriated the other schools by screaming at the top of our lungs) I just cant believed it, our hardwork really paid off. We set high expectation on ourselves, but i guess under the stressful conditions, theres only one word i that i think we should have is to be " contented". It has been quite somewhile since i have come across Gold during SYF. The other time was when i was in PCPS CO. The feeling is really good. Especially when you are sharing this joy and laughter with your CO MAtes. Am really elated and relieved. There will always be room for improvement, but this will be my last time having syf. 3 times of syf experiences made me grown up a lot in terms of peforming skills and stage presence. I love ever single syf. Not only that i gain self satisfaction, but it is also the bonding among the co members that really leave a deep impression in me.=)

Saw my beatty juniors! WHEE~ I was like so shocked to see them appearing from no where. heehee. Goody old peeps! Really miss everyone of them. And all the beatty juniors who never come...*hugs* Took some photos with them. (cant stand my untidy hair, shouldnt have used the hair spray!) Am really touched since they came down straigh after their exam! Thanks guys! OOOOOOOOOOOOOO....also saw Zhou lao shi( beatty conductor) He was conducting Pioneer jc and RJC. So Happy to see him! His presence really make me laugh out loud. There went his clumsy actions and werid expressions. He rocks to the core man!=)

See, as promised, this post is extremly meaningful right? right! HA HA... It has been so long since i ever wrote on something colourful. Guess all these while i have been boring you guys with my work schedule and non-stop complaints. heehee. Bear with me k?

The past few weeks have been tough and tiring, but we made it through the end! Perseverence! The suffering wont last long with a strong and positive mindset. It's time that i should catch up with my work. Have been lagging behind since i had missed quite a number of lectures and tutorials. Jia you Man.

One wish to Beatty co. GOLD for the next syf k? Love to hear from you guys next time. I would be as happy as i am now! Even happier lor!

Someone told me that i dont make the first move when comes to a certain issue. Will it be good if i tried to squeeze myself into the group when i feel umcomfortable and all? I would definitely love to...but what i want is to have more sincerity to build on as foundation. I feel weak at times...but i just need someone out there to understand. Need not to be a lot of people, just one will do. will you be the one? HA HA...dont worry, am not forcing anyone. Move on if you have to, course you are the one who control your life, not me. I will be back..back soon.

2007-05-06T22:49:00.001+08:00

Hi everyone. A week has silently passed by. Why do i say so? Even i myself find the whirlwind of events within the week were too packed..give me a break man! It always feels so threatening to find that i have a pile of stagnant tutorials and several upcoming tests. Argh.

CO is taking up a lot of time. I wonder if this a good or bad. When i am in CO, it at least helps me to take off some stress from work and focus on something else. But, whenever there is co, i will reach home very very late. Tired too. I ate my dinner late too. Time is running out for many of us. How i wish i have an hour more daily...impossible right?

I am starting to losen up myself a bit. Am still trying to fit myself in the environment. Hopefully i wont feel myself like an alien after a few more weeks.(cant delay any longer, few more weeks k?) I really need to settle in fast! Everytimes i am like so distracted as to what is happening around me and even for the little things that dont make much a significant at all. Over-sensitive and am feeling real tired. It's time for me to think rationally like studying for physics.

Screw up a few things at school, but that is not going to hold me back from figting and improving on them! Yes, feel quite disturbed by them. Somehow, i just wont surrender, maybe that's why i am always feeling so tired. I dont reward or give myself a break. That's the real problem. I should reward myself with more FOOD! heehee.. But am glad that i really like to go home after a long day in school. I miss my family members, my brother who is in the army and my bed. Furthermore, that is where i find myself relax and happy.=)

Take care peeps. jia you always. Jia you for SYF!

2007-04-26T20:56:00.000+08:00

You Are Sunrise

You enjoy living a slow, fulfilling life. You enjoy living every moment, no matter how ordinary.You are a person of reflection and meditation. You start and end every day by looking inward. Caring and giving, you enjoy making people happy. You're often cooking for friends or buying them gifts.All in all, you know how to love life for what it is - not for how it should be.

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whattimeofdayareyouquiz/">What Time Of Day Are You?

2007-04-26T20:53:00.001+08:00

Your Power Color Is Lime Green

At Your Highest:
You are adventurous, witty, and a visionary.
At Your Lowest:
You feel misunderstood, like you don't fit in.
In Love:
You have a tough exterior, but can be very dedicated.
How You're Attractive:
Your self-awareness and confidence lights up a room.
Your Eternal Question:
"What else do I need in my life?"

What's" Your Power Color?

2007-04-24T17:19:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone. Well, today is quite fine.

Suppose to wake up at 5 am to do some of the unfinished tutorial..but i dragged till 6 am. Urgh... I feel like i have not been sleeping for 2 hours. Tired~ Rushed out of home to catch the bus 105 which usually comes around the same time. If ever i missed that bus, i would have to wait for very long for the next bus. yup. Luckily i got on the bus on time despite leaving home late. Phew.

After chinese lesson, i rushed to the computer lab to print the PW notes. Call me a computer idiot! I had a difficult time using the common printer. heehee. Too bad that my home printer is no longer working...=( Kinda troublesome to always need to print the stack of lecture notes and tutorial without a good functioning printer at home! Then after, i rushed to do my chem tutorial. Gee...didnt do much last night as i was very tired after chinese orchestra practice which ended at around 9.30pm. Maybe i should start activating my mid-night oil programme soon! Hopefully it will be a temporay one. yupp

My CT teacher has given us the project work group. We have to start ploughing now...if not there wont be any crops to gather at the end of the year. Saw quite a number of similarities between my friends and I. We work with different attitude, speed and neatness. Maybe this will be a time to learn how to work as a group and comprimised at times to cater to everyone's need. I am still working towards that although today's meeting there are a little disputes surfaced. Jia you Man!

Gonna have chinese orchestra from tomorrow to sunday. WOAH! Wednesday there is practice from 3.00 to 7.30pm, thursday there is lunch time performace, friday is the last rehersal for the 30th aniversary celebration, saturaday practice again and sunday we will be going to Singapore Conference Hall for syf rehersal. All my time revolved around CO. lol. Hope i dont have a nightmare at night! heehee..

Light after darkness, gain after loss,
Strength after suffering, crown after cross.
Sweet after bitter, song after sigh,
Home after wandering, praise after cry.
Sheaves after sowing, sun after rain,
Sight after mystery, peace after pain.
Joy after sorrow, calm after blast,
Rest after weariness, sweet rest at last.
Near after distant, gleam after gloom,
Love after loneliness, life after tomb.
After long agony, rapture of bliss!
Right was the pathway leading to this!

-by by Francis Ridley Havergal

http://www.crossroad.to/Victory/poems/light-after-darkness.htm

2007-04-21T21:17:00.000+08:00

WHeee...Flee-fly.

Are you feeling the joy by just looking at this? I hope you do. Course, that's what winnie the pooh power can give u. HEEHEE.

Cheers to everyone. Have a good weekend ahead. Dont be so uptighted. Smile and relax.

balance

2007-04-21T20:41:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone. Yupp..still on MIA mission, but i have this urge to blog right now. SO am here again. heehee

Lately i have been very busy with school works and syf. Almost everyday reach home at about 9 pm plus. Whooh. How nice uh? By the time i finished my dinner, it would be 10 plus. I always tried to scrap sometime to do my tutorials but my body is too tired to go on. In the end, little work done is achieved and what i got is a tired soul. Well, am not trying to complain about this, since i have already choosen this path. But, i would really like myself to realised the importance of balancing myself in whatever situation.

I wish to find some peace, confidence and strength in me..to carry on this journey. The word" friendship" is something that i am always trying to make sense of. Maybe one should not be too bothered by it. " Sincerity" is a quality that i find it hard to sense. But i do believe, all these have to start from me myself. Many at times, i am in a dilemma of what i am as a person, friend, daugther and other roles. I see and feel many things around me...that makes to ponder deeper into striking an equlilibrium on the beam balance in my heart. I really need to keep myself firm regardless what conclusion i come out with at the end of the day. After all, many things are not always in my control. What i can control is my thoughts and heart. Shall let nature takes it course. yup

Well, i have the intension to go and help out in some old folks programme. I see the importance of contributing to the less fortune than keep thinking about what's going on inside me which makes me find that i am a very self-centred. Everytime i feel breathless, someone or something would hint me to look at things from a larger perspective. Let's believe in that after a heavy rain, the sky would be lighten up. It worths a lot just to see that similar smiles on you as well as the people around you...

[ stand by yourself in times of difficulties...for you are the one who can make a difference to other's life. Never be stingy with things. Let them go...]

Hi everyone

2007-03-14T16:41:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone. Seems like i have been on a M.I.A mission. heehee.

Hm...let's see..where should i start from uh? heehee. Oh yes, my appeal to ny is successful and so i will be staying in ny family for the next two years. Another two years of struggling and suviving in tons of tutorials. That's life isnt it? Things will never come easily for you unless you really put in that hardwork and sweat in reaping the results ya? No short-cuts wor!

Oh yea, am quite excited to start my jc life. I have already forseen the kind of rigor i have to go through within these two years. The depth of the subjects and as well as the fast pace teaching environment. But somehow, i would really want to experience all these with much maturity and of course with more time management skills. It is like a brand new world to me. yup.

I have bought my graphic calculator which cost a bomb of $199. aw...And also 2 sets of PE and 1 school tie. Nah, still have not bought my school uniforms yet..ahhh. But then, the colour of the uniforms looked lighter from the previous sets of uniform which the J2s are wearing. How i wish i can buy back the dark brown uniform even if i look more like a mud. heehee.

Lately the CO practisces in Ny is more tough. The committee have already told us that there would be more sessions of practice due to the up-coming Syf. I hope we can do well as a whole. Much to an extend..it is also where i could continue my passion for Co. yupps.

yes yes, to all dear juniors in Beatty: Work hard and strive to attain the best result in Syf. Am sure all the hardwork and sweat will eventually pay off and of course dont let yourself down anymore. Play the tunes with all your heart and souls and may you guys achieve a greater height as a whole co. Remember, everyone of you is equally important and you guys should always help one another through thick and thin. Afterall, we are still a one big FAMILY. yea? All the best!

Hopefully i can go and see you guys on the syf day. Let's see how it goes... Even if i cant make it, my mind will always with you guys okie? take care people.

[you are the one who can make a real miracle in life. with your hands, mind, heart and soul.]cheers

2007-03-01T14:44:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone. Guess people out there are a little impatient with my slow updates. HA HA...erm, as if so many people come to my blog. True. Even if you are reading my blog at this very moment, i also dont know about it. This is how insecure i feel. So...do drop a tag so that at least i feel it is worthwhile for me to continue to write here. HA HA...This is just another ask-but-no-answer question. Well well...

Life down here is seriously monotonous. Maybe i am too anti-social or what, but i find it hard to find someone who has the has the same frequency in thinking as i do. Slim chance. How sad? Come on, am i that anti-social as i seem to be? Once you know me well enough, things are gonna have a 180 degrees change. Right friends? heehee. Sometimes i just feel that the problem lies in me and not others. But i have not yet reach a conclusion. Well, the world wont stop rotating without me...life still must go on, no matter what.

I tried to apply for the OGL thing. But am not choosen in the end. I will try again next time. Wait till the time come!

Ahhhhh, these days i am not having enough sleep! So frastrating. Every day, i have to rush through the pile of tutorials that kills a lot of my private time. The previous tests are like posions to me. What to do? I cant turn back on the path right now. I just have to wack my way through the dense grass and make route(sense) . I need to keep my head above the choppy waters. Make odds into advantages...

The posting result will be out soon. All the best peeps.

Good news: qing ying is now as old as i am. Welcome to my world, qy! heehee. Happy belated birthday!

2007-02-19T22:42:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone. Today is Da Nian Chu Er! yupp. My family and i went to my aunty house to pai nian. I did have a good time there as i got to really interact with my cousins. They are really very nice and warm indeed. heehee. Well, these days i have been eating non-stop, so i guess, i have grown fatter! heehee. Shall go and exercise after new year celebration. heehee.

Well, i am touched by the small gestures that my brother did. He is going to army in march. I will definitely miss him a lot. I admit that i dont reveal my feelings infront of him, but somehow, blood is thicker than water. I really want to see him doing well in army as well as a person on the whole. Today, i really did enjoy sitting by his side on the bus. What i had regret was not treasuring him more in the past. What i want to do now is to treasure more of the people around me. My family, friends, teachers and anyone who come across my life. I am not a very emotional person, but rather, i am sincere to whoever i know.

2007-02-18T21:39:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL! May you guys have a wonderful CNY and do smile more. Drink plently of water and stay pink=) heehee. TAke cares=)

AM BACK

2007-02-05T16:49:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone. heehee. It's has been quite some while since i have updated my blog.
Well...i had to change my old blogger account to the google new account which i find it very troublesome! Well, due to Ru Luan request that she wants me to blog, then i shall take the trouble to get over and done with these things. yupp.

Hm..have not been feeling too well. HAving fever and sore throat. Now that the fever is gone, but the sore throat is killing me, course i cant talk as much as before and cant eat the goodies as before. Ah. I spent my saturday and sunday lying on the bed. Almost i guess. When i was not lying down, i would be using the com. So you have already guess that my weekends are BORING. Not to say about doing any tutorials then...(which i hate not doing).

Hm...surprise surprise, my GP group is choosen to be the group which will represent 0711 to compete with other CTs. Omg. i have never thought to be able to get in through with my team mates since i dont think we are well prepared. This time i didnt freak out is because my CT is small..guess standing infront of the leture theatre. Ah...I hope i would have more confidence by then. Now i am starting to see some light in GP. At least i dont feel so hopeless in the first place.

There has been a lot of rumours that the results will be released on mon to fri. But since today is already mon, then it would be out of the option. Oh yea, the news will be release 2 days in advance, so i dont think it would be tomorrow. Erm..well, like what i am doing, it did no good to keep guessing. So the best thing is to wait for everything to be ironed out before we even continue to torture oursleves with all the wild guessings. Right people? Actually, we are all nervous to get the result. My whole class does not have the mood to study today lor. All the tutors who came in sensed so. OK! I admit that i am nervous, scare, worry and unsettle. I dont know, when the external factors are too overwhelming, why not considering to stay more calm then? My suggestions. FOC. I dont really have a lot of experiences other than the releasing of the PSLE result. Somehow, even though i never did that well but when comes to secondary school, i actually see myself developing more maturally and also a better person than in primary. What i want to say here is, i interpret that taking any major results are part of the markings in our whole life..and what you did between the 2 marks( between PSLE n O level) is what that really changes your life drastically. I dont know if it is really true for you, but as i say...that what i strong feel so. So it applies to the other 2 major exams to uni too. You get what i mean here? *knock knock* HAve you fallen asleep by now? Opps
Time really flies, last time we went to see our seniors when they were getting their results. and before we know, we will be taking over the hot seats of being the recipents...Dont mistaken, life is not playing on you. What will be here will evetually be here. Or anywhere...

2007-01-29T23:22:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone. It is going to 12 soon. Counting down for myself..ha ha

Happy birthday

Hopefully this year will be a good start and i will always try to be a better person. Get sensible and understanding. Always believe in good outcome and stay optimistic no matter what. Live life to the fullest and be grown up as an individual, teenager, child, friend... Wish everyone will be happier and enjoy mental wellness. SMILE simply.

Everyone is living for a purpose. Everyone is unique. So you are too. *wink*

2007-01-21T11:56:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone. Sorry for the slow updates. heehee.

Seriously, there is really no time to slack these days other than catching up with my sleeps. Even if i wanted to blog something here, i dont think i have the chance either since my brother has been using the computer very often at night. By the time i waited for my turn to use, i have already fallen asleep. Ah! Same goes for the piling tutorials that i have to clear. Ah!

Lately, quite a number of people is sick. So..people out there do take care wor! Take plently of rest and drink more water and also eat more fruits. HAHA...i think these things do help most of the time. yupp.=)

When stress level goes up, one couldnt help to feel down. I not only see this in myself but also in others. Sometimes, going out to take a break is good, find a few comical friends and go and laugh out loud until you are satisfy. HAHA. Let's face the truth, the more you bottle unhappy things up, the more depress you will get one day. It is just a matter of time when you will break down and cry. WHat's the use of crying when you have already hurt youself that badly in terms of mentally. Right?

Well, all these linked back to the state of life you are in right now. Well..i am now in the state of jc life. Life seems more and more like a roller coaster as weeks go by. In lectures, you just have to give your hundred percent concentration to the lecturers who are talking contiunously. Nothing less than 100% ok! Even so, it is also up to one's capability to understand straight on spot. If not, not only you have to go back and read up on the chapters again, but you will also have tons of question marks uncleared. At tutorial, be prepared to supply what the tutors have demanded from you. Or else, life is not going to be safe sailing. Get what i mean? I do understand it is a new stage that most of us are going through now. I realised that i really have to substain my passion and interest for the subjects if i want to survive in the dry environment.

It is another long entry...hope you guys wont be bored by what i have said. Let's continue to SMILE no matter WHAT!

2007-01-06T21:48:00.000+08:00

It's not about how high you can climb but how many obstacles you have overcome to reach the top.

It's not about the length of the journey but the determination to cover them.

It's not about falling down several times but the experience we gain after each fall.

It's not about looking back into the past but the memories you got whenever you recall back.

It's not about the getting to the end but overcoming your inner fears every step you march forward.

It's not about the greatness of one's self but the people around to shape him/her into a better person.

Geee...Some thoughts that i would like to share. If you dont agree with them, just skip it. Sometimes, i just wanna scream out loud for to whole world to know what am i thinking. I choose to keep quite. Probably that's the best choice..for i am still screaming out loud in me. staying alive and struggling.

2007-01-05T23:14:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone. Today is the last day of NY orientation. We have a total of 3 days of orientation. yupps.

First day was quite boring. After flag raising is then the usual talk by the principal of NY then followed by subject talk. Ahhhhh..almost fell asleep neh! No, i need to pay attention! ha ha. Things are gonna be different from secondary school, i need to grab hold of the information fast and process them quick. Then, my ogls( orientation group leaders) brought the whole og18 for ice breaking games. Ahhh..i dont really like ice-breaking games, course am poor at memorising people's name! Managed to pull through the games. phew. Then, we had to cheer very loud for our own og, fraction and as well as NY. Later, we had mass dance. All of us had to partner with an opposite sex group mate. Well..we learnt 29th dance and traditional dance. COOL! i always enjoy dancing even though i take more time to have my body flexible. It was followed by games and the whole day ended around 6.45 pm. What a tiring day!

Second day was a bit more fun that before. It looked like everyone had come alive after a good night sleep. YEah! Mass dance again...then we all went to sentosa to have our activities ( like amazing race, fashion parade) yupps. I enjoyed myself tremendously! Whee~

Today was the highlight of the orientation programme. We had our mass dance then proceed to have games( water games etc.) woah, our og is always competiting with another og. Our ogls are all very enthu! WOAH! They rox! Then, at night, we had our cheer leading competition, skit and DISCO dancing! The DIsco dancing part was brillant! Everyone was very hyper and active! WO~ This was my first time dacing in such a way! ha ha. GREAT!

I have been losing my voice now and then...ahhh...it sounded so base~.

Overall, the orientation programme was very successful and fun. All these thanks to the councillors, OGLS and the cheer leading master. YUPPS. You guys are WONDERFUL!

hm...am thinking of beatty every now and then. Life used to be so comfortable in beatty and i have to adapt to jc lifestyle. I heard my seniors that it is gonna be tough in jc, no time to waste at all. At the thought of it, i felt like giving up, but somehow i know things wont be that way at all. What do i want? What am i afraid of? Why am i thinking so much? But what i can say is, i am still adapting to a new environment...sometimes i just felt so left out. Maybe i should be a little more independent. yupp. LEt's face the challenges ahead, no matter what! SMILE! =)

2007-01-02T10:33:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone. A brand new beginning, let's anticipate the days in 2007 will be all wonderful and pleasant.

YOZ, tomorrow is a day to go school. AHHHH...i feel so uneasy, nervous and scared. Werid me uh? In actual fact, i admit that i kinda scare of my unfamiliar surroundings and it will be hard for me to mingle around. Can someone give me some courage? Why do we have to study so much? Why isnt that a school that allows you to finish all your course under the same environment. Erm, okie, i shall face the reality that there ISNT such school. Aw. This makes me wanna go back to beatty even more. I still remembered that i stepped into Beatty quite unwillingly, but as days went by, i realised i am part of the beattyian family afterall. To me, Beatty is not a school with a bunch of gangs but rather there are really nice people in there! The friendlyness of the teachers, students, stall holders make me love BEATTY a lot. Is it too late to declare such love for beatty? hm...It gives a brand new me too. From a super quiet girl who doesnt like to mix and talk to anyone to a girl who laugh so readily and even ENJOY schooling. Dont ask me if what i've said is ever true, to me, it's the most wonderful gift i received from beatty. I enjoy the days in sec3 and sec4 especially. I found very nice teachers, friends and my cca memebers. What i can say is, i am really blessed to have all of you as part of my life...

Beatty will always be a place that i will visit often once JC starts. Course, it's like my second home! well...we always hear people saying that we need to look ahead to the future. But what if the history really marks a memorable memory in you? I guess, recounting them back is also a joy! But, i will still look ahead and meet new people. Like i always says, I WILL NEVER STOP TRYING and TO BE A BETTER PERSON!

I'm always so touched when i think back of the days in Beatty. The joy and laughter really overcomes all stress and obstacles when studying. Don't you agree?
Take cares my friends, 4e1'o6, co memebers. N of course, special thanks to all Teachers!

2006-12-31T23:03:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!=)
Let's have faith in the up-coming year. Cheers. I hope it will be a year where by everyone will be happy and world peace. take cares. SMILE ALWAYS!

2006-12-26T23:34:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone! hm...it is another long and rainy day. HA HA. (such a boring and lame opening..heehee) I just feel like hibernating in my bed forever and ever, i need to reserve my energy for the upcoming challenges. LOL

I just took a look at the calender. What shocked me was that it is about 1 week more to school reopen. AHhhhhh. ha ha. I haven take a look at the calender for ages and it gives me the creeps when i thought of the impending schooling which will push me back to the hectic life as before. HA HA...But at the same time, i want to go back to school for i can spend my time more usefully. So much of slacking at home and being a "rotten mud" yupp.

It also dawned on me that...this year is actually going to end soon! Aw... This year has been filled with a lot of joy, laughter and of course, hardwork. Well, isnt it the human nature that we dont always take notice of our surroundings, days and little incidents throughout the year until the very last minute?So much to conclude yet so limited time to express on everything. Maybe i may not be able to type everything down here, but somehow, things and incidents still remain clear in my heart. Some may have gone vivid, but i'm sure it wont leave me with more regrets than not remembering any of them. I am thankful for all the incidents, happenings, events that took place throughout year round. They have made me learn how to be a better person. Not to the perfect, but there is always room for improvement right? yupp. Also, i also get to know the word of "feelings"," friendship" ,"preseverance" and "understanding". Moreover, "unspoken gradtitude" and " asking nothing in return" when you are being helped by someone or even "giving more than you receive". I appreciate for all the lessons which are taught little by little everyday. Just remember to bring along with you this two words after you have read this whole paragrah: " believe" and "smile".

Yea, i do have a lot of thoughts running through my mind right now. Not intending to write all down in case i confuse anyone of you. heehee. No lah. Would rather share happy stuffs with you guys. *wink*
Oh yea, i once heard my father say that one who always thinks a lot and get angry easily, dont get fat easily. i wonder if it is true. Studying is also a way too. I wonder if anything gets to do with using the brain juice in any thinking process will get you slim. Hm..maybe we need some scientific result to even conclude it's realibility. heehee.Yes, i do think a lot but getting angry easily is depends de lo. heehee. My mother also told me that i was supposed to be born on valentine's day! heehee. Didnt know that until recently. yupp. Quite cool isnt it? Probably i can give some blessing to all loving pairs lo. HEEHEE!

Take cares.*WAVE WAVE*

2006-12-25T21:11:00.000+08:00

Merry X'mas!

Think i have said enough in the previous post. Lost of words now. May my warmest wish reaches you guys. *wink*

2006-12-24T20:00:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone! Merry X'mas Eve!!!

It has been raining since afternoon. To me, the rain is a subsitution of snow. Isnt it? heehee. I know other countries which are further away from the equator are experiencing snowy season. How i wish right now i am in a snowy place! Since afternoon until now, cold wind has been blowing non-stop through the window slit. The floor is so icy cold man. BRr..

Well..i spent my afternoon sleeping. In other words, i'm just wasting my time that's all. That's how i spent my loney afternoon. It is so LONEy~. erm. ha ha. Sleeping is not a very bad option afterall, it was so cool and chilly, and it the perfect conditions to SLEEP! HAHA.

Sometimes i wonder, what matter the most to us. Have we put out piority right? hm... I do understand that everyone has different needs. WHat seems to be the most precious to one might be insignificant to other. Why? I believe that what untouchable, invisibe stuffs are what we are most lacking of. Eg. love, self reflection, care and concern, family bond and etc. Are you on the same track as me? We need not be having the same thoughts on these, but rather, have you ever question yourself on this question? yes. Infact, we might not be able to realise what is the most important factor in life for we have been "blinded" by all the desires that we experiencing in our daily lives. Such things are only a temporary contentment to your hollow soul. After busying for the whole day, have you ever wonder if it worth any other invisible gains other than self satisfactory? yupp. I sincerely urge you to think of it if you are reading this...course it is never too late, for we are all leaving a fast pacing, realistic and complicated world. Will we lose our true self one day? Will we surrender our qualities in-exhange to other materalistic stuffs? Just a penny of my thoughts. Can skip this whole chunck if you want, i doubt anyone will read this anyway. lol

Well, dont let my previous paragrah affects your christmas mood. HA HA...yupp.
To all: WIshing all of you a merry x'mas! May all your wishes come true. Dont forget to smile more during this chilly season! yupp..course, your smile will eventually lighten and warm up everwhere you go. Spread the warm around! Take care people! good nights.

Counting down to 12. Another day is just about to begin! whooo.

2006-12-20T23:08:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone. Woah! Finally the sun came out today. COOL! It has been raining for one-and-a-half-days le. Can you just imagin? Nothing but water that was around us. I cant go anywhere but stucked whenever i am. HA Ha..today my mother was super elated to see the sun come out...this meant that she could hang all the clothes out to dry. heehee. What about you guys? Is today a day for you guys to get out of the stuffy house? heehee.

Hm...i went out with my mother to central. We bought some daily stuff and they came in many bags. What's more was that only the two of us to carry them. FAINT! Nvm, i AM STRONG! heehee. I broke some eggs that my mother had bought. So sad! I didnt mean to break them, but they were already not very secure in place at first. hm...later we went home with our hands full. Amazing feat uh? heehee

Hm...there is some problem with my web msn again. Ahhhh...now i cant even go online and chat! Argh! I'm like being "connection-less" with the whole world! Erm, abit exaggerated. heehee. Can someone please help me with the msn thing? lol. Am trying out the yahoo messgenger. I cant only add thoes peeps from my contacts who has live msn. yupp. Well, this is not going to help much too. NVM! i surrender to this network stuff le. ARGH.

I love dark chocolate. My whole mind is full of dark chocolate! heehee. To me, dark chocolate is never too sweet, yet it gives a unique sense of bitterness. YEAH! Sometime i still feel that the dark chocolate that i am eating now is still not bitter enough! What a joke! I have tried 99% dark chocolate. It really tasted like mud. heehee. Right Jasmine? HA HA.I think i better stick to the dark choclate that i used to eat. Probably i will try 50%-60% dark chocolate. heehee. Cant help it you see...i AM ADDICTED to COco. I love it! Anyone shares the same sentiment as me? heehee. *wink*

-chocolate-minded-

Ahead is yet another long journey...i HAVE to walk on...no matter what!

2006-12-18T18:15:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone. Today is my father's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY PA PA! heehee.

Actually i was suppose to meet janet at 8.10am..but it ended up that i overslept. Sorry janet! hai...probably i slept too late last night.

In the morning, I went to Ny to meet one of the seniors to pass her my cca record. Hm..it ended up that she was 40 minutes late. Nvm, later i met Li Suan and went in with her. We then dropped the forms into the pigeon hole.

YAY! My phone is finally alright le. Thanks to Li Suan! heehee. She really did some magic to my phone. So happy now.=)

Hm...later, i went to meet my family outside the breadtalk in toa payoh central. Hm..i shall fast forward what had happened. I was not feeling too well and i felt terrible. When we finally reached Orchard...i could no longer hang on and desperately need to sit down. I felt weak. In the end, i sat cab home while my brother and my parents went ahead with the birthday celebration in some hotel. AW! I had totally spoilt the whole birthday celebration. I could tell that my father was very disappointed. =( Hope he ate well just now.

Now, as i am typing, i feel much better. I shall celebrate my father's birthday again when he is free.

take care peeps. =)

2006-12-17T10:43:00.001+08:00

HELLO everyone. Hm..have finally decided to change my blogskin. How is it? Hm...i have been wanting to change it before exam started. Just that i am too lazy to get it changed? Sorry for giving you guys the boring-look of the blog. Let's start afresh! heehee

Hm...it seems to me that most of my friends around me have gone or even going to overseas trip now. ahhhh...yet i am still stuck where i am. How sad? hm..i always wanted to tour other countries. Guess what? When i have reached the legal age to fly on my own..i will first go to DISNEY LAND. ha ha. ( don't faint okie?) yupps. I want to take the photograph on the disney characters. heehee. Will i get to see Winnie the pooh and friends there? ooooooooooooooooo...just cant wait to get out there. But, wait a minute...i'm scared to get lost out there. FAINT! heehee. That's me. LU CHI (road idiot). heehee

YUpps. I shall label this week as CO week..why? Monday-Tuesday i had Beatty CO chalet. Wednesday i had Ny CO camp. Thurdays-Friday i had Ny CO Chalet. Other than that..Friday was Maye's Birthday too. To Maye: Happy belated birthday!
Jasmine is always saying i am very old liao. True lah..since my birthday is in Janauary...I get to be the first among my friends to celebrate my birthday de. Sometimes, when i am in a new environment, it takes months to make friends. When i have mingled close enought to them, my birthday is already over. How sad. But i should say it would be a very peaceful and loney b'dae for me. NAy..what am i talking about. Forget about the whole chuck if you dont understand. Need not waste time to analyse it. heehee.

Sometimes i really wish to look into the mirror, not for beauty purpose but rather to see thoroughly who am i as a person. What kind of person am i? Of course there would be some ugly sides of me. I am just never a perfect person. Being a better person requires much effort and determination. Hopefully at the end of the day..i would be happy with myself and not keep struggling to keep myself above the torrent waves. What i can say is...i am still trying. trying hard.

First three month de result has been posted out long on 14 dec. Am not disappointed nor happy. I feel just alright. I will gladly accept whatever it is given to me at the end of the day. Whether the appeal is successful or not...i will take it on. I believe that every where can nuture one to study hard and all. What worries me is the result that will be release next year. I am holding my breathe...